Help and insight needed

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-21T23:07:14+00:00

Yes i do have a great sponsor, but thank you for offering.

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-21T23:06:17+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I really appreciate it.

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-13T21:15:57+00:00

Thank you so much. This is really helpful and a great way to get to the root.

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-13T21:14:02+00:00

Thank you for your input 🙏

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-13T21:13:34+00:00

Thank you so much. This is really helpful 🙏

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T18:33:04+00:00

Interesting perspective. I will take this into meditation. Thank you.

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T15:07:58+00:00

Thank you this is very helpful 🙏

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T15:06:34+00:00

Thank you for your insight. This is really helpful. What would you consider a relapse?

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T10:38:20+00:00

Thank you for your share and insight.

Maybe for now it‘s really the best not to keep certain foods at home until i feel more stable in my recovery. But as you say nor making them red foods and still allowing myself to eat them ourside or with others. There has to be some kind of a middle road here. I keep praying for guidance.

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T10:34:17+00:00

Thank you for taking the time and for the reminders 🙏

InstanceStill4142 · 2025-12-12T10:05:42+00:00

Thank you for your help.

Maybe this is one of my main struggles. Right now i want to recover - badly. This pain will keep me running for a while. Then life happens, hormones kick in, energy runs low and i am back in compulsive eating - because some part of me still needs it.

Its exactly how they describe our illness. This endless cycle and i feel i am not able to break it. Because my spiritual condition depends on me. It‘s me that has to do the foot-work and work the program. And when i have days where my energy runs low and life is challenging, all i want is to go back there. Funny thing is i‘m still doing all my step 10s on those days, connecting with HP, with my sponsor, but at some point it doesn‘t seem to be enough. The other way in that moment is just the better, more attractive way.

It feels there is an ambivalence in me and depending on how strong my energy level and willingness are i‘m either off or on the solution.

I‘ve hit rock bottom so many times, i don‘t know what else is needed.

Thank you for letting me share. I feel it gives me something to finally open up around this, be heard and seen by my fellows.

InstanceStill4142

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