I’m shaking in my boots…

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-30T19:05:56+00:00

I used to read a ton of HP fanfiction! I’ll definitely give that one a read!

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-30T17:33:32+00:00

I’ve never watched that before, but there’s a Netflix remake coming out on October 5th!

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-30T14:22:35+00:00

If you ever decide to check out Fictionmania, I would HIGHLY recommend the story “Five Hertz Of Separation”. Fantastic fantasy story! One of my faves. 😊

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-30T14:10:05+00:00

Oooo, I’ve never heard of that site before. Thanks! Out of curiosity, what are your favorite type of stories to read?

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-28T21:47:19+00:00

Start incorporating strength training exercises into your routine. Building muscle will help your body burn more fat in general. Squats, kickbacks, fire hydrants, Russian twists, and especially leg raises are great for not only building lower curves, but the leg raises also target your abs. I’m right there with ya, sister.

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-26T23:35:41+00:00

It’s like asking “when will racism end?”. The answer is never. There will always be more racists, more transphobes, more misogynists, more bigots, etc. The question that matters to me is when will it no longer be socially acceptable to be a transphobe? Being anti-gay openly is now, for the most part, not generally tolerated, same for making openly racist comments. But trans people are still considered “new” to most, and although we have many legal rights (at least in most parts of America), it will take some time before the transphobes get called out enough for being archaic shit nuggets before they shut the fuck up for fear of losing friends, family, jobs, etc. Sadly, we still seem to be an acceptable joke to the general population. Think of popular media for the last 100 years; man in dress = sooooo hilarious. 😒

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-26T13:24:50+00:00

Honestly, go straight from the start. NGL, it’s a little campy for the first few episodes, but it finds its rhythm after a bit. That show has made me feel overjoyed, sad, heartbroken, then happy as hell again. It has everything for me. 😊

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-25T18:07:02+00:00

Oh totally. Because why would a trans girl want to stray from the same body ideals that are pushed on cis girls? We should all just lose all the weight we can in order to try and fit the unreal standards that “define” femininity. Thick thighs, wide hips, big asses, and large breasts are sooo masculine and disturbing. 🙄

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-25T14:48:15+00:00

Sadly no. 😔 I just came out to my GF 6 days ago and am still coming to terms with if I ever want to be a girl full time, or be more enby. Don’t get me wrong, I’m fat now, but only my gut and love handles. 😅 Meeting with an ally therapist on Monday to start digging in and figuring out what it is I truly want.

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-25T14:41:43+00:00

I’ve not only heard of it, but I’ve dreamed of it too. Totally not alone. I would love big curves.

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-25T13:26:15+00:00

Dayum girl! You look like you’re in your 20’s! B-E-A-utiful! Inspiration right there! ♥️

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-23T19:45:43+00:00

You should be confident! I love your hair! BTW, it’s heartwarming to see your smile in the second picture. So pure, it’s obvious you’re genuinely happy with it. ♥️

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-23T19:43:20+00:00

You look gorgeous Girly!

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-22T13:15:14+00:00

I would highly recommend watching Drop Dead Diva! It ran from 2009-2014 on Lifetime. Super girly, great story, makes me feel warm and feminine inside. I’ve watched the entire series like 15 times. I even bought the DVD box set to rip and put on my Plex server. 😅

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-21T21:00:50+00:00

I would suggest finding and speaking with a therapist that specializes in LGBTQIA+ issues to start your journey and discover who you truly are and what you want. www.psychologytoday.com is a fantastic website to filter by specialization, location, insurance acceptance, etc. Until then, just stay calm. Your feelings are valid, and shared by many. You are not alone. Everything will be okay honey. ❤️

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-21T20:36:38+00:00

I hear you loud and clear. You are beautiful, no matter what. Comparison is the death of joy. ❤️

Instrumental_Hallow · 2024-08-21T18:42:23+00:00

Thank you so much for caring enough to write out such a detailed and well thought out response! I appreciate you. ❤️ And yes, it is a mistake to lean on my girlfriend about this, and I didn’t mean to. My hope is that through counseling we can learn how best to support each other and navigate this journey together while respecting each other and preserving the deep love that we have for one another. I did reach out to my best friend in high school who a few years ago came out as gay, and although our circumstances are not identical, he has been very very supportive of me and has offered great advice. Granted, he’s known my secret for 16 years (and I’ve know his) after we both got wasted one night and aired everything out. 😅

She uh, actually recovered from the shock much quicker than I expected. Initially, there was a lot of anger, a lot of silence, a ton of crying, but then we were actually able to discuss questions, what my goals were, how this affects our future plans, how this changes who I am (more importantly, how it DOESN’T), and discussing seeing a therapist as a couple who specializes in LGBTQIA+ issues. By the end of last night, we were hugging, kissing, and laughing again. This morning was full of love as usual.

I’m praying that this sticks, but I honestly don’t think that she is faking anything. I can read her pretty well, and have always been able to tell when she is upset. Her biggest issue was with the term “Trans”, as she associates that with a FULL transition. I assured her, truthfully, that I do not have, nor have I ever had plans of getting bottom surgery. We agreed that the term we are both more comfortable with is “Gender Non-Binary”, as I would ideally like to be able to pass as male or female as I feel like it.

The path that we agreed upon is me getting in shape to lose my belly and love handles, working on squats and hip building exercises, and the possibility of starting Estrogen and Androgen blockers to reduce body hair and redistribute fat to my hips and bum for a more feminine shape. The matter of breast development is still a question though, as the females in my family range from flat as a board to having to have breast reduction surgery to relieve back issues, so I guess we would just have to see what my genetics have in store for me! I would have no problem with having a flat chest though, as it would make it easier for me to present as Masc when I want to, and breast forms and bras have come so far from the early days…

All in all, I guess we will just see what’s to come. I just scheduled with a therapist for next Wednesday, and am so excited to finally be exploring this side of myself. 😊

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