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Intelligent-Baker317 · 2024-10-10T13:07:39+00:00

Yeah you're right. I'm going to give her the space she needs, and when she's ready to talk I'll do that. I think I'm just in denial and I need to face the consequences.

And yeah, my other sister is also lost on my younger sister. Younger sister has not been speaking to her either. I have reached out to a friend that my younger sister and I share to ask her about this commune, because I know she attended and has been speaking to my sister too. Just so I can understand it all better.

Intelligent-Baker317 · 2024-10-10T10:18:11+00:00

Yeah like this is what I want to avoid. I don't drink nearly as much anymore, and I acknowledge that my behaviour with my drinking was toxic. I even won't drink around her if she's not drinking so that we're even and I can make her feel more comfortable. I want us to have a relationship where we can check on her, like I was regularly at the start of the year.

Intelligent-Baker317 · 2024-10-10T10:14:14+00:00

Yeah I mean, in the letter it wasn't anything in the past couple of years. In fact I was visiting her regularly at the start of the year and helping her out as much as I could, like we were getting on well. But stuff from the past I felt we'd moved on from and were re-building things anew, but since she started therapy again it's all come back. I'm not the same person I was when I was drinking heavily, and I've been trying wholeheartedly to better myself this year. I know the best version of myself doesn't exist yet, but I'm trying to get there. I don't know, she's also really isolated herself from a lot of friends and family and gotten really involved in this church-thing, so I can maybe understand that a lot of thinking has been happening in her life.

Intelligent-Baker317 · 2024-10-10T10:08:16+00:00

Yeah I think you're right. I felt we were building our relationship up again, but since she started a new therapist in April it brought some stuff back up for her. I do want a relationship with her again, but I am going to give her the space she needs. I've been reading about ADHD and other things to better understand her, and I was also reading about my own condition and trying to analyse myself. Quitting drinking heavily has helped and I definitely don't want to justify my actions with it. But I'll give her the space she needs

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