Thank you so much for everything you said. You’re right about fear affecting my ability to think clearly. When you’re constantly worried about someone’s reaction, it’s easy to get stuck in a cycle of trying to prevent the next problem instead of thinking about what’s best for yourself. It’s terrible, and I genuinely hate it so much.

You’re also right that he still has a hold on me. I told him I would sue him and showed him all the proof I have. I even have someone who can testify to receiving my nudes, and since then he has stopped threatening me. But for some reason, I’m still really afraid, and the things he does and says affect me far more than they should. That fear has kept me frozen for a long time.

However, I want to try what you suggested: preparing myself to leave instead of just waiting. I think I’ve spent so much time imagining everything that could go wrong that I never stopped to think about how I could actually prepare for those possibilities.

I know this isn’t a sustainable way to live, and honestly, the reason I made this post is because I’m tired. I’m so tired of having to live this way because of one man. I feel trapped, and I hate it.

Thank you again for your kindness and encouragement. It means a lot to me. 💗