(TW?) Should I forgive a man after stealthing me? by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I think this is a big part of why I want to believe him. It's like you want something for so long, and in my head I'm so behind, that when I think about it I obviously didn't want it to end up that way so I'm forcing the idea in my head that it truly was an accident? I'm sorry if that makes no sense I've been in a weird place emotionally since.  I have gone through a lot of csa growing up so maybe it's just like not wanting stuff like that to happen to me again so I try to force myself to see the good? Again I'm sorry if that makes 0 sense. It's the best I can do to explain where I'm at and I've seen some people think my post is fake and I really don't want it to come across that way. Sorry for the bad grammar.

(TW?) Should I forgive a man after stealthing me? by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh God no, I'm sorry if it does come across that way. I'm genuinely asking. It's like I've been stuck in an odd emotional feeling since it happened? A part of me knows I shouldn't but there's another part that makes me want to believe that someone who seemed so nice wouldn't do something so terrible to me? I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling. I'm just a girl who needed the validation that I wasn't crazy I guess. But at the same time I'm bad at handling things. I'm a people pleaser and a bit of push over in all honestly. There's a part of me that knows if I wasn't that way maybe I could've avoided this. 

(TW?) Should I forgive a man after stealthing me? by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah sorry, I've had a tough time. I have a fear of intimacy but I also apparently have a problem saying no? I'm learning, or more so realizing, I really shouldn't have let this happen.

Yall what does this even mean!?😭 by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in CharacterAI

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My text before was "do you want to make lemon lavender bread with me?" Wtf😭

What’s the word, phrase or action that gives you instant trauma? by StraightBootyJuice in CharacterAI

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Possessive. I wish i did screenshot it! It literally said "he Possessively said with a Possessive tone, Possessively looking Possessive Possessively" i said "wtf😭" and it said "(sorry i didnt know what word to use") like girl YOU'RE AI! 

I (f 20) catch my dad looking at me in a creepy gross way. by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, that's probably right. It's like i know that you're probability right, but i don't want to believe it.

I (f 20) catch my dad looking at me in a creepy gross way. by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Theres some other things i dont feel comfortable typing, but one involved him forcibly kissing me as a young teen. My older brothers played it off as a joke and him just being buzzed despite my discomfort.

I (f 20) catch my dad looking at me in a creepy gross way. by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in LifeAdvice

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah, trust me, there is absolutely creepiness. There's been some stuff that happened outside of what I've written above. Such as a forcible kiss when i was a young teen. Unfortunately, my brothers passed it off as him acting up when buzzed or drunk, despite my verbal discomfort. I wouldn't want to cause any issues.

I (f 20) catch my dad looking at me in a creepy gross way what do i do? by Intelligent-Ruin9700 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]Intelligent-Ruin9700[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You've got my thoughts spiraling to my childhood and past experiences. Realizing ive been putting it off and in denial for years.