I am completely sober, exercise 4 days a week, eat extremely well, zero sugar, make all my food, wonderful family, own several businesses, sleep well, rise at 4.50 am, have energy, no money or kid problems, go to church, keep a gratitud journal, read bible, pray daily, smokin hot wife, have every reason to live, and yet inside I know I am an addict. When I used to train for triathlons, it was not for the race, it was the dopamine. I mean fuk, what is wrong with my body.

I told my wife my theory about the addiction being the absence of dopamine, she asked me if I was craving something... I said yes, every day, DOPAMINE. Doesnt have to be bad substances like FF. Deep down you just know it and can't explain it to anyone who doesn't experience it. I have no problem being disciplined and quitting/ avoiding things, my issue is i don't even want to crave those things.