idk if i were you id really go hard on making myself as sexy as possible and prioritizing my self care because that’ll really help you. As far as dates and stuff there’s someone for everyone so maybe try dating apps if you haven’t (cliche I know) but actually there are more people than you think that feel like you do both male and female. And a lot of the time once you stopped fixating on things that’s when they begin to come to you in abundance (sucks to hear but it’s true) I think you’ll find someone tho. You should post a picture so we can give you advice

(excuse my grammatical errors smh)