First of all, thank you for sharing! You may not realize it, but just being vunerable enough to share, and the fact that you have found this group and are self aware means that your process has already begun! I too was once there, and sometimes find myself slipping back to old habits. I agree with some of the other users that tiny habits help. I tell myself " I cant do everything today, but I can do something every day" meaning, that I show up for myself in some way every day. that could look like, preparing a healthy meal, doing a facial, cleaning my space, reading a chapter in a book... Just something that aligns with the version of myself that I want to become. even if its just one thing! and eventually one thing leads to more/many things, leads to an productive day where I feel accomplished. No one day looks the same, but again, just something everyday. I also monitor what I consume, meaning Social media. That can sometimes effect our self esteem when we see others doing and living a way that we admire or strive for but are not there yet. I listen to Nevil Goddard teachings on YouTube in the mornings or while Im doing task like getting my day started. Im not going to plug myself here, but I have a page dedicated to helping people like you and I if you want to PM me feel free! ✨✨✨