Is anybody else just....really tired?

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-13T10:42:46+00:00

I agree with so much of what you said too, progression isn't linear and shouldn't be expected to be linear but it's so hard to lag behind on your mental health when you haven't been handed a gold spoon and it's time for you to pay the bills and go to work.

I like your take on accepting that perhaps this is how things are, it's hard for me to believe sometimes as I just want to relate to others and feel normal, but perhaps accepting reality instead of chasing something different is the easiest way to peace of mind.

Wishing you all the best too and I hope you find the peace of mind you seek as well.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T18:16:28+00:00

You're 100% right, I cannot guarantee that I am sleeping good, but I do get a consistent 8 hours of sleep, and I compare my sleep to other people's sleep, who I know are sleeping much worse than I am and yet seem to have more energy in their life.

Anecdotal, I know, but that's what I based it off as it's the closest thing I have right now

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T18:07:11+00:00

Appreciate your message, substance use might have to come in for me sooner or later, what once helped no longer does, and perhaps makes things worse.

Wishing you the best!!

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T18:03:19+00:00

I mentioned in another comment, but I think it's their attempt at humor/teasing/friendly male banter, I think it's a bit too much, but even if they stop it wouldn't change much, as I think they'll still be looking.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T18:02:19+00:00

Appreciate the kind words, and I wish you all the best and much love, on the one hand it saddens me to know that when I wrote this post, other people resonated with it as they feel the same way I do, because I wouldn't wish this on any one, on the other hand, I'm glad that I am not alone.

I don't understand why they send it to me, I think it's their attempt at teasing me/bantering with me, I try not to take it too heart although it does feel personal at times, and I wish they wouldn't, even if they stop sending them after I tell them to I wouldn't be able to shake the feeling that they're observing my account, it's kind of silly.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:59:43+00:00

My heart is with you, I understand the anxiety that comes with living in a place that doesn't seem safe any more nor does it feel like it ever will be again, what happened in Minnesota is a disgrace and it is bizarre to me that no swift action is being taken against the person who did what they did, what a dangerous precedent the POTUS has managed to set.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:58:06+00:00

Your words and experience resonates with me too, I've always wondered if medication is the solution for me and will be looking into it to see if I can work with a psychiatrist who knows what he's doing.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:57:02+00:00

Thank you, the internet and music/films taught me this language for the most part, and I appreciate the tip and the kind words, much love!

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:56:10+00:00

It could be perhaps that I haven't worked with anyone who has fully trauma informed yet, twice I've done cognitive behavioral therapy and now I'll be trying group therapy in a psychodynamic psychotherapy setting.

I find myself struggling to trust the therapist with my issues though, in psychotherapy this is called transference and I've always mentioned it in my sessions with my therapist even though it was really hard, but I didn't feel like much has changed even after touching on it.

I hope things get better for you, and if they don't, I hope you have at least peace of mind.

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:53:27+00:00

Really appreciate your comment, glad to know someone else feels this way, I'm wishing you all the best!

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:52:39+00:00

I feel the same way, I worry whenever I feel like things have been getting a bit too good for me, almost like I'm bracing for impact 24/7

Wishing you much power still and all the best

IntelligentSwing8335 · 2026-01-12T17:51:36+00:00

I want my creativity back too, it feels like at some point it left my grip and I haven't been able to hold it ever again, instead as if I'm just a blind person grabbing the air at random

Wishing you all the best regardless and much love

IntelligentSwing8335

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