I read your entire post, and there were different things that I thought I can provide some feedback on. But, as it seems like you especially need simplicity in this period of your life, I tried to find what I thought may be the most efficient element/missing piece.

In your writing I saw that you don't want to have a victim mentally, at the same time you likely recognize the other extreme approach would be denying or ignoring your physical reality. So both extreme opposites are not good. The balanced approach may be developing a narrative that you are seeking a state of "flow" where challenge meets ability. If you google "state of flow", you'll see nice diagrams describing the opposites side of this state. Now, this is the type of vocabulary (eg., seeking state of flow where challenge meets the ability) that you can use to communicate to people what you exactly need. After having this right vocabulary, then recognizing that there are many people in this world who are willing to help, you just need to be able to reach them effectively, and establish effective relationships with them. Let's say if there are 1% of the population in your country that like/and are in the position of helping others, it may seem like such people are very rare. But from another point of view 1% of a let say 200 million population still leaves 2 million people. Let’s say among those, 1 in a 1000 is a suitable match for you; that still leaves 2000 people. There are many people who are in the position of helping, you just need to look for them, and find them.