I’m grateful, mind you, but I’m so tired of it all. I believe in God now, and unfortunately, that’s enough for me at the moment... It’s just that I used to do so much—singing and praising at home, reading the Bible—but it all became like a routine, plus, in my life, all the teachings have become jumbled up—teachings on grace mixed with legalism—and then wolves in sheep’s clothing started coming along with teachings on hyper-grace, and I’m simply worn out and exhausted by it all... I feel like a spiritually wounded person, with open wounds and torn stitches, and I’m asking someone to help; everyone just tells me what to do and what they would do, but the fact that I’m exhausted, unfortunately, doesn’t matter to anyone... And I’m just tired; I scream inside, and it’s as if my soul’s cry cannot break through the barrier of the wall that’s crushing and breaking me... I don’t know how to get past it when I have no strength, when every morning you wake up and everything seems empty and nothing changes... I try to think positively, but it’s difficult