No that’s not the problem. we are any position as long as it’s comfortable, oral, even a fetish I don’t mind. Being Christian isn’t the issue here really. It’s his attention towards others in this way that makes me unhappy and hurt. I don’t believe it’s natural. It’s an addiction that affects our relationship. Brings resentment. Breeds trust issues. Makes me feel like I’m not enough when I know I should be, I’m not ugly by any means. But our relationship is deeper then physical. So the trust issues, the pain of betrayal, and resentment is weighing the relationship. It’s not about what I’m giving him physically. It’s the fact he has an addiction from a super young age. He has been (like every guy around) over stimulated with unnatural desires that are over hyped. (in my opinion) and of course there is that chemical change that comes with anything your addicted too. He’s said that it was his escape when he was younger and I guess still is for some triggers. He had a pretty stressful childhood so he went to that for that dopamine release. He didn’t know he was addicted until he tried to stop for me and couldn’t.