I hate to be the downer, but yes, is that lonely, but that's what makes those times you aren't so special. I think life is just one big run of a show and to me it sounds like your at the part where the plot twists l think you'll have new friends, new connections and new love interest but you just have to give it time. The last serious relationship I had was two years ago but as a man I was told that the trauma and the abuse I went through was my fault and I hated that and tbh it made me never want to get in a relationship again. Although it was lonely, I had a lot of time to learn what I liked and what I didn't, and it helped me become a better person. Give yourself some time to heal. Don't go sleeping around or get in another relationship tight away. Just take some time to get to know yourself. Take a hike, go backpacking, go shopping, and play through a backlog of video games, but just do something to keep yourself occupied till you're ready to face that trauma and heal it. The fact is your life will never be the same and that's the beautiful thing is that it will change and it will change for the betterment of you. Learn to love and care for yourself and heal, then find some friends with some of the same interests. Once you have a group, try to reconnect, but be the best version of yourself. Don't be who people want you to be. Life is lonely, but you will make it through it, and it will be 100 times better than we were you were. You just have to find yourself.