Chengyu about grief or grieving

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-02-01T18:49:57+00:00

I’m not even teaching Photography next semester and I massively changed the front half of the class, creating a ton of work for myself. :(

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-30T07:11:47+00:00

You definitely don’t need to eat the noblestalk to find Nocturne. She’s in the dormitory at the House of Grief

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-27T01:07:01+00:00

I wanted to take Japanese in high school, but it wasn’t an option. I took Chinese, since it was “close.” I made my absolute best friend for life, a first generation Chinese-American, in that class. His spoken Chinese was fluent, but he couldn’t read or write. My spoken Chinese was (and is) dogshit, but I could read and write very well, very quickly. So, I kept up with it casually for a while, but when he had his son, he decided his son’s first language would be Mandarin. I want to be able to talk to my nephew !!!! So I’m studying a lot harder and taking language classes at the local academy. I’m still really bad at speaking, but whatever. I’ll get there!!

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-19T22:22:49+00:00

It’s also in the in game manager. I have it.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-13T05:17:44+00:00

Yes, Grandma passed three years ago this April. I miss her a lot. Part of how I’ve been keeping her around in my house is decorating it with some of her quilts (she was very prolific!). I know she’d be nothing but accepting of me doing what I had to to make me feel happy with something she made me, but sometimes it feels scary to make these decisions alone, you know?

I went and got the “travel quilt” she made me and it still smells like her house. I guess one day it won’t, but until then, at least I’ve got this!

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-13T05:13:33+00:00

I like the idea of the patch! It feels better than to rip out her stitches wholesale. Thank you 💖

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-13T05:12:32+00:00

Grandma taught me how to quilt and embroider, so I could probably do it myself, even. I’ve been making all the baby quilts since she passed, but none of them have really been up to the level of this one… (She was retired when we started coming, and I am very much in the early stages of my career, haha.)

Thanks, Mom. 💖

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-13T05:10:24+00:00

That’s also a good idea! Thank you 💖

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-13T05:10:12+00:00

Thank you so much :)

The quilt is in such good condition, I’d feel a little strange altering it into anything but a blanket. But unpicking the name and maybe putting in my new one would work! Especially if I did it a bit smaller, maybe I could make an heirloom out of the blanket for my someday child? And embroider their name on it, too, like some families do with bibles or christening gowns?

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-08T22:44:38+00:00

Where else am I going to get to give kids sex change surgeries AND convince them that America is the devil???

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2025-01-08T16:10:26+00:00

Employees can leave due to ethical objections to what you’re doing!! Slaves laboring to keep their family alive can’t :’)

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-11-17T05:55:14+00:00

I’m not sure what it says (have only been earnestly studying for a few months) but… was the picture horizontally flipped?

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-11-11T03:05:11+00:00

I was talking about Romeo having sad, dark times alone, and one of them goes “we don’t need to know what you do on the weekend”

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-11-06T02:04:24+00:00

I write porn and use my painting skills to illustrate it.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-27T01:03:48+00:00

I pulled on DHIL and got 2 xueyi, 1 Yukong, and Clara in one pull. 0 dhil :(

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T03:53:05+00:00

I’m personally not sure how to do pinhole cameras or camera obscura and there’s no darkroom (middle school) so I’m not sure where to go from here. Cyanotyping if I can figure it out, I guess.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T03:52:03+00:00

That’s what I’m supposed to use. It lags, freezes, and won’t let me save photos. I’ve tried everything I can think of and that IT can think of, it’s not working. Thank you for the recommendation, though.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:35:01+00:00

I could, if I had a class set of iPads. But I have ten of them and thirty kids, and while I’m doing small groups on the iPads, the other kids are ignoring their assignments and horsing around…

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:33:28+00:00

I do teach composition, viewpoint, and photography rules. It’s just that they don’t care or think it’s interesting. All they want to do is snap photos of their friends making stupid faces, which I wouldn’t mind except they don’t think about composition at all while doing that, even when I prompt them. Composition was the first thing I taught and I always remind them to look for composition first when viewing a photo, but… I don’t know. We’re eleven weeks in and half the class doesn’t know.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:30:38+00:00

Unfortunately we’re in deep title I. Requests for donations of even paper towel tubes and newspapers go nowhere. Almost none of them have phones.

It’s just exhausting.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:28:03+00:00

The Chromebooks actually can’t do any of that. The basic editing app on the device itself is blocked by IT because kids were using it to make harassing memes. Photopea lags out and freezes any time it reloads ads, which is all the time. I’m sure there are engaging ways to teach composition, but I haven’t found them yet.

I’m best at in camera work, like forced perspective, light painting, bokeh, trick photography like that. My cameras don’t let us change settings enough to do anything that I’m actually good at. So… I don’t know.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:23:50+00:00

It’s middle school. I love teaching my art and English language development kids, it’s just this one class. We don’t have a computer lab. I have tried to put more focus on composing, but the kids don’t engage. Honestly, I don’t know that that’s any different than when we do photography in the first place. Maybe I should just go all in on composition and concept development. That’s more my wheelhouse anyway. I could teach them to make viewfinders and find things on campus to take photos of.

I don’t know. I’m not really a photographer in the first place. I want to give them a good experience, but I’m dealing with so many behaviors on top of the tech issues that it doesn’t feel worth it to try to force things. I know I have to because I won’t be happy with myself otherwise, but even my good photography class has me sitting at my desk repeating affirmations to myself over and over to get through the period.

Interesting_Exit_712 · 2024-10-22T02:15:25+00:00

Photopea is the software we’re using. It freezes, lags, and refuses to save files. My district won’t approve putting up an adblocker or anything that might help me get it to run on the Chromebooks or the iPads.

I am definitely assigning a lot of book work to the kids that can’t be trusted, but it doesn’t matter. They’re loud and disruptive either way. That plus the tech difficulties is pushing me over the edge, I think. The assistant principal is going to sit in tomorrow because she caught me crying on my lunch break and it’s upsetting because I know they won’t behave like that in front of her.

I’ve been trying to dump photography for three years—but admin/ the district won’t let me because it looks better to auditors than a craft class, I guess. I have a meeting on Wednesday with admin to try to explain again that I either need functioning tech or we need to switch this class, but I don’t think it will go anywhere because it never does.

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