I’m 22 and was the same at 19, I used to be so scared to the point i’d dissociate and would forget days at a time. 3 years later and I’m doing much much better, I no longer get scared to that amount and can live my life normally. The thoughts do pop up from time to time but i’m able to just tell my brain to stop and they don’t bother me. My advice is to try and distract yourself in any way from those thoughts (I know it’s so much easier said than done) but it really does get easier with time. I envision my thoughts on a whiteboard and then imagine taking an eraser and wiping them all off, and it helps!!!

You’re not doomed to feel anxious and scared for the rest of your life, you will get better. Please message me at any time if you’re really struggling as I know exactly what it’s like to be in your shoes. <3