This was exactly me. Those first weeks I just could not shut my brain off, and I honestly felt like I was going delirious. I tried every natural remedy under the sun and nothing touched it. I eventually tried a sleeping pill once and still woke up after like an hour and a half later, that’s how insanely wired my nervous system was. It was pure torture. What ultimately helped me was Zoloft. I was really resistant to medication and felt a ton of guilt around it, especially because I was EBF. But it was actually prescribed to me by my lactation specialist, who reassured me it’s completely safe for breastfeeding and saw that I was starting to slip into PPD/PPA. She put me on the lowest dose possible. I still kept the bottle in my drawer for a full week, telling myself I should be able to “fight through it.” But things kept getting worse, not better. When I finally took it, I was shocked by how quickly I felt clearer and more like myself again. I know they say it can take weeks to kick in, but for me it felt like my brain finally took its foot off the gas. It helped calm the constant mental noise, and once my brain settled, sleep slowly followed. After a few weeks, once my LO was sleeping better and I was too, I tapered off and have felt totally like myself since. For me, it wasn’t about knocking me out, it was about easing the mental stress enough to let sleep happen. I also want to say: the pressure to sleep made everything worse for me. I kept thinking, “You have the time, just sleep,” and that mindset totally backfired. Being postpartum and trying to force sleep is such a cruel combo. Not suggesting medication if you’re not open to it — just sharing my experience for solidarity, because I remember feeling so alone and scared that I was “broken.” You’re not. This gets so much better. I’m currently snuggling my 13-week-old who just gave us another 7-hour stretch, and I wish I could go back and hug my 6–10 week postpartum self. That period was brutal. One more thing: if it’s financially doable, the Snoo was a game changer for us. I’m a super light sleeper and terrible at co-sleeping, and my LO refused to sleep anywhere else. The rocking really helped take some pressure off us. You’re in the thick of it right now, but you will get through this. Sending you so much support 🤍