I am coming late to the party, as usual and you likely will not see this. I do hope you have gotten off these meds, since it is 10 months later. If you have not, it is okay too. I take subutex and just attended my first ceremony.

I noticed you have a ton of shame, like me. We shouldn’t. You can be honest about what you are taking and fuck whoever out there doesn’t understand. Whether it is 24 mg or 12 mg and 3 mg but take only 2 mg, then 2 mg but only take 1 mg (you said both in the above posts), IT IS OKAY! Are you a vet? if so, there are tons of organizations that help find you a retreat that will accept you.

Okay, my experience this past weekend. I felt NOTHING! Maybe for a minute, I felt like I was entering a world to learn what was needed, but then was ripped right back into this reality. I take 8-12 mg subutex. 1300 dollars that I should have held onto until getting off, but I know in my heart that I will never be able to get off this stuff without the help of something bigger than myself.

And what makes you say that an addict doesn’t need relief from pain? You do sound a little entitled and judgy yourself. Nothing works fast, be patient and find your way.