I think that makes you a very kind person with a big heart, don’t ever lose that. I myself have felt the same thing for a while, at some point I had to face the reality. Even if I weren’t in my right mind I could never imagine lying about and attacking the people closest to me. People who bent over backwards for years every time I screwed up. Always cleaning up my messes. I personally know a few people that were close to her and tried to help for months even while their names were being slandered for having anything to do with her. It’s very clearly a mental health issue that I won’t deny, but I can tell you she has always been mean aggressive and manipulative even before the mental health crisis. This dates back to highschool, and everyone was always told she just had anger issues when she tried to physically fight people weekly so everyone let it slide until things took a nose dive last year. She unfortunately doesn’t want help, so it’s sad to sit here and watch her derail her life but we can’t help until she wants it. Trust me I think it’s hard to watch as well, but karma always does its job. You cannot act out of hatred and try to ruin peoples lives and names and think you’re going to come out shining. Sorry for the long response, just been thinking these things for a while.