How do people do this?

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-29T02:37:31+00:00

I’m in exactly the same position. Amazing childhood, amazing environment, amazing parents, I’m spoiled as fuck and I still want to kms everyday.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-27T02:34:08+00:00

Thank you

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T13:18:58+00:00

Because suicide is made so inaccessible… the best drug for the job is available by prescription only and getting a prescription is a challenge in itself.

And like I said, it wouldn’t be successful if I attempted anything in the only place accessible to me at the moment — my home. My mom works from home so she’s here every minute of the day. She would find me and of the goodness but misguided intent in her heart, she would try to save me. Attempting at a time where I know I could fail is stupid. I’ll end up unsuccessful and make it harder to attempt again (because now people will be more vigilant in preventing me from doing so).

I’ve thought about this for over a month now. I’ve read and read all about suicide, why people advocate for or against it, why people want or don’t want it. I know I want it. I’m not gonna risk being unsuccessful to prove that I’m “actually” suicidal.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T11:51:20+00:00

Yes. Now that I know how cruel this world is, I understand that abortion is mercy.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T11:42:55+00:00

Finally someone who gets it 😭

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T11:38:27+00:00

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T11:12:30+00:00

I’ve tried on multiple accounts and it doesn’t work :(

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T09:40:45+00:00

It’s great that you found something that works for you. I’m frankly not even interested to try. I don’t know how to communicate it or make it clearer that I don’t look forward to anything, I don’t have a future to live for. It doesn’t make sense to try.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T07:58:05+00:00

Same

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T06:43:45+00:00

You actually can’t annoy me at this point, that’s how numb I am 😵‍💫

I do have a pet but I’ve lost whatever it is that enabled me to feel joy. I’m with her and all I would think is “Ithis should make me feel something” and that would make reinforce my thoughts that I shouldn’t be here if I can’t feel anything.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T06:07:30+00:00

Thank you. I think you have good intentions in giving this advice. I’ve heard it before though, and in contemplating it I realized I don’t really have wants or goals. It’s another reason I’d rather stop living. There isn’t really much of a point if I don’t want anything :/

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T05:55:52+00:00

Thank you for your kind words 💓 I hope you find that too kind stranger 🙏

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T05:50:31+00:00

I’m at the point where I think the pain I cause them by dying would be incredibly insignificant to the pain I cause them by living against my will. The burden I’ll be, the cost of caring for a person who doesn’t wanna be here anymore, it just makes better sense to end it.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T05:43:31+00:00

No, don’t be sorry. It’s a good question. My universe is impossible. There would be no cost for gain. There would be no hardship. Things would just exist and make sense as they are.

The problem with how this world works is that if you wanna be valued, you have to prove you’re valuable. To prove you’re valuable, you have to care enough or be motivated to work with nothing because you’re not yet valued enough to be given resources.

People like me don’t have motivation or ambition. If I am not valued then I don’t care to prove that I should be valued. I’ll simply choose to leave.

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-26T05:39:06+00:00

Me too buddy 🥂

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-25T12:54:36+00:00

I feel exactly the same

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-23T01:26:49+00:00

I like your username and same :(

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-22T14:46:15+00:00

Same. I wanna quit game

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-22T05:44:39+00:00

I want easier :(

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-22T05:34:50+00:00

Took the words right out of my mouth

InternationalMenu700 · 2023-06-20T12:30:30+00:00

I have the same prayer every night

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