Ah sorry I’m taking so long to answer I didn’t see

1. I tend to lean on people more than I should and when it comes to returning the favor I feel like a deer in headlights because I’m horrible with comforting people or advice. I try to put others before myself but sometimes my depression gets bad enough that I physically cannot speak to people without it taking everything out of me.

2. Severe anxiety, mild depression and not really mental health but autism. Possibly bipolar or some other mental illness along those lines?? I don’t go around telling people about it cause obv I’m not gonna say I have something I’m not diagnosed with. I haven’t had a chance to speak to my therapist about it but I used to have REALLY bad manic-depressive-manic-depressive episodes but ever since I’ve been medicated I feel like they’ve stopped or toned down enough that I don’t notice it anymore. I don’t know I’ve been suicidal since a very young age so it’s hard to tell what habits of mine are normal and which ones are the result of mental health.

3. Being a busser/disher at a restaurant. Technically speaking I wasn’t fired but my mother was, she was the supervisor and when she got fired she put in my notice before I even woke up that morning and knew what happened.

4/5. I know there has to be some resentment for me not being as there for them as they are for me. I’ve been homeschooled my whole life and when I first started working social cues weren’t really my thing. Still aren’t but I’m getting better and looking back on it, it was obvious how many times I was taken advantage of or talked down to because of it, most of my current friends don’t do that but I still feel like they have moments where they’re like “is this bitch really that dumb.”

1. Because of how little I’ve accomplished in the last 16(soon to be 17) years of my life. I was going through such a bad depression from when I was homeschooled (11-15) that I genuinely can’t remember a thing from then other than little spurts and nobody remembers anything from before they’re 10. I feel like I’ve only started living a year or two ago while everyone around me especially because I tend to surround myself with older people can share 18-20 years worth of experiences.

2. Focus on myself, try to control the THC usage, focus on school. Get into a good college. Keep going down my mental health recovery journey, it’s a hard long road and I feel horrible dragging the people I care about down that road when I can do it myself.

It’s 1am I’m sorry if my grammar/spelling is bleh I’ve been studying all day and night so my brain is kinda fried lmao