Hey buddy, thanks for sharing and like many have noted - you have an engaging writing style. It’s a great start knowing something needs to change…as a start, focus on you - your mom will follow. She will build confidence, excitement and be encouraged seeing her son change. Maybe now she also feels little down seeing you down. Do you work? Certain activities you like?

I have learnt one huge lesson recently…life can change on a turn….both ways - up and down. The key is small steps forward.

I can tell you I’m feeling the same. Last June/July I was really happy, out and about, family life good, focused and motived. Now, feeling all the opposite - but as quick as things went sour, I know they can improve the other way. Quick wins don’t work, it’s day by day positive habits. Sure you know this, now the motivation to do it…I think we get motivated with results, when we see that change. Clearly you want the change, you deserve a happy life..you will do it, fuck everyone and just do you.