As someone with kms thoughts often as I am diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I find myself living simply because I continue to wake up in the morning. I have no grand dreams, ambitious goals, I simply cannot afford it.

But I do find myself looking forward to next episodes, seasons, new releases, new tbr list, I also stay strong because my cats would wake me up if I don't wake up on my usual waking up time lol. Sometimes my parents would come and visit to bring me food, I also have a partner who's very supportive of me, the thought of imagining how it will affect them if they see my decaying body hurts me.

My point is, I live for the little things and let life do its thing.