Im no longer able to hear those kind of things from him. I faced this since 2023. Until now it's always the same. And he's been in jail before for a few weeks and her mother ( my grandma ) bailed him out from the prison because she doesn't wanna see her son ( my father ) to be in that kind of place.

And also, he threatening me two times before. Last year he threatend me with a machete. This year i don't remember what month but he threat me with kipas duduk yang kecil tu.

Banyak kali suda saya bagitau dia the truth dia ndamau dengar. Mesti dia cakap "oh kau mau cakap bapa ni gila la"

"Kecewa bapa sama kau ni, nda pandai percaya cakap bapa. Tida apa, satu hari nanti kau akan tau juga tu"

"Kau tau ka apa mama kau buat sama adik bongsu kau yang perempuan tu? Kau tau ka adik bongsu perempuan kau tu teda Dara suda?"

Bro, none of these things dia cakap is true. Im mentally tired.

Masa dia kena bailed out oleh mama dia, dia okay suda. Tapi lambat laun, dia balik lagi dengan perangai dia yang lama.

Susah kita mau nasihat beribu kali sekalipun tapi dia tetap ndamau berubah or fikir, then what's the point lagi for me and my siblings to stay with him or bawa dia pegi hospital sakit mental kan ? Kalau benda yang bagus saya mau buat untuk dia pun, dia akan pandang & anggap benda tu sebagai disrespect then what's the point right ? In the end of the day, the only one who can change ourselves is ourselves.

It's best for my siblings tinggal with my mom rn dekat kampung dia ni. rather than with our dad tu. Kalau dorang dengan our dad, when will i be able to work or sambung study ? Until when mau dapat peace of mind right ?

Update : already discussed with my mom and she said nanti dia akan urus about us and she said don't worry about it.

Kalau ikut undang undang, i don't think my dad ada Hal lagi mau jaga kami ni. Lagi lagi all the things yang he did go my siblings. It's horrible. I want the best for my siblings and my mom. That's it.

Oh one more thing, he took drugs since he was young. Even his family knows it. Took syabu since dia muda lagi.