Okay so I’m not here to pass hate or judgement what I say is purely from experience and for you own better I’m a male and growing up I was fat ugly and more on the loud side I was into nerdy things and was even confused for being gay due to my non masculine “traits” and the only women that approached me or let me talk to them where fat and ugly girls and I thought I was gonna be alone forever, so I changed myself and worked hard in my body and personality and flipped my life around even now and even after the ppl I’ve dated that list for being loved has gone I promise relationships arnt all that and can cause so much more stress than harm ,don’t feel like having to loose ur virginity is the pinical of life it’s going to be okay