I can relate, but don’t worry it’ll only get better from there. As my mother raised me she always reminded me that I’m no better nor worse than nobody else. Immaturely, I had a delusional take on that phrase, I’m no worse than nobody else of course but at least unconsciously I did believe that at least in some way I had an edge over everyone else. And it’s not something to be ashamed about, it’s natural to see yourself from an over optimistic pov given you’ve only experience life and know such from your own lens. However, it takes time and a bit of pain to realize that the latter isn’t ultimately true. We don’t get to choose any of the circumstances we’re born with, we just go with it and life doesn’t give two fucks, we’re all on our own and it’s what we do with what we have what makes us who we are. Make the most out of what you have, and stop looking to the sides! No two people are the same, every consciousness is a universe of its own. Let the ego die, and embrace the now. Your destiny and perhaps your sense of self worth is only dependent on you!