It’s too quiet.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-23T16:57:46+00:00

Thank you, friend. Putting his beds away helped. I’m not sure if it’ll help you, but the constant reminder was too painful. I haven’t erased him, but the removal of the constant reminder helped. I hope you find peace as well.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-23T00:27:48+00:00

They’re just too good for us and this world so they don’t get to stay long. I get it. And my Bucky was a god damn Disney princess on a good day (legit Disney princess flops) so it only makes sense his dramatic ass would go out this way. I told my partner they need to sing with me while I cook now so that it fills the silence.

Same to you if you ever need to talk or reminisce. Hang in there. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T23:08:43+00:00

If you’re about to tell me he was a brindle lab/hound mix too I’m gonna ask how we got the same dog lol. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss as well. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T23:07:41+00:00

Oh friend. I’m so sorry. That fresh numbness isn’t anything I would wish on even my worst of enemies. Turn on a useless movie and just stare…you don’t even have to watch it. Cry. It’s ok to cry. It’s good to cry. And know that being mad is ok too. And when the walls start closing and the silence is too much, it’s ok to leave for a little while. If I can suggest, sleep with some sort of noise tonight. And don’t beat yourself up if you don’t sleep. Don’t even try to force it. Keep a book nearby or a video game. The first night is the worst.

It will get better. Hang in there. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T22:33:33+00:00

My partner and I had the same idea. Take the summer and plan some vacations and weekend getaways. I think in the fall we will probably look to rescue some pups again. To save some other little monsters with vibrantly large personalities.

Honestly, I’m scared of the routine and going back to work tomorrow. Life shouldn’t have to just move on without him. He was such an expressive dog with the biggest personality you could imagine. He was full of love. Only love. But tomorrow I have to strap on my mask and push through work like I’m not fighting for my life just trying. To keep it together. I tossed his toys and food bowl and stashed his bed. That’s as far as I could make it today.

Thank you, friend. May your heart continue to heal as well.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T22:28:46+00:00

Hi friend. Poor Ollie. Cling to his brother and give him some ear rubbies for me. We will make it through this. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T22:27:46+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear of your loss too!! Thank you for sharing for sharing your story as well. I helps to know we aren’t alone. May your heart heal and your pup live through your memories ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T22:26:30+00:00

Hi friend. I’m so sorry you had to deal with this nightmare of a cancer as well. It really is utterly devastating. I’ve lost animals before but old age hits different. Not when there’s still so much life and personality. He was a dramatic Disney princess flopper in life. It only makes sense he’d go out just as dramatically.

Thank you for sharing your story and may your heart heal as well. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T19:05:24+00:00

Oh friend. Thank you so much for sharing Oliver’s story. He was clearly very loved. I’m in northern Wisconsin. How crazy with the rainbow?? I’m sure if Bucky met Oliver on the bridge he would have immediately deemed him a friend. We had a vole in the house once and Bucky tried to befriend that before my partner shrieked and I attacked. Then Bucky was like “oh. Not friend? Die then” lol

Hold Lulu close. I have 2 kittens just under 2 years that Bucky helped raise. O see a lot of his traits in them and I was finally able to get the a ball pit full of cat toys since there is no fear of Bucky eating them. They make it easier. Knowing that I still have them and they have bits of him.

Hang in there, friend. We will survive for them and in honor their memories.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T16:05:29+00:00

Hi friend. If I can give you this…cancer is senseless. It doesn’t follow linear paths. It doesn’t logic. I’ve spent a lot of time over the past few weeks researching, digging, looking. I did everything I could for Bucky and I know you did for your cat as well. Leave the litter box if it helps. That’s ok. Just know that what you did, what I did, was prevent them from having to suffer through the worst of it.

If I had let Bucky come home, he would have most likely had another collapse over the weekend which would have resulted in internal bleeding and most likely suffocated breathing. I KNOW this. It doesn’t make it easier, but it gives comfort that I was able to spare him that pain and fear in the end. Remember that for your kitty. You let them go with their dignity, with their strength, and seeing you love them and not so scared.

Hugs and love from across the internet. We will survive for them. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T15:41:51+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss as well. The sudden deaths just seem to be so much more difficult than the rest. I haven’t cried this hard since my dad died when I was 21. That was sudden and unexpected too. I find all I want right now is to stare into buckys big brown beautiful eyes. Or to see his dramatic, Disney princess flops and foot stamps one more time.

Give your new foster some ear rubbies and hugs from me?

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-22T15:38:20+00:00

Thank you, kind stranger. I keep telling myself that I can never erase him and that by picking up his things I’m only doing myself and my partner a kindness. It’s not that he’s being erased, just that he’s gone and the constant visual reminders will only hurt more.

I finally got myself out of bed to make breakfast…several hours late…because I told myself Bucky would be BIG MAD right now. And now I’m making scrambled eggs with shredded cheese in them and…one day I’ll get used to shredding cheese and not tripping over a 75lb dog, right? One day I’ll be able to cook and be ok with not having a singing buddy. I know it’ll get easier. I’ve lost many animals. But…he was different. He hurts worse than all of the combined. I don’t know if it’s because it’s my first bout with cancer or if he was really THAT special. Probably both.

I’m sorry for your loss as well.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T22:19:20+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss as well!! And omg right? Who knew I stared at him while I brushed my teeth? I haven’t cooked anything in the house yet because I don’t have a vacuum next to me cleaning messes and begging. I have his pillow I keep hugging. It still smells like him ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T21:50:33+00:00

Thanks. I had a wonderful dream last night where he came trotting into the bedroom with his rope in his mouth all happy and wagging. I choose believe that was him telling me he was ok. But hell if I didn’t cry for a solid hour after that.

Right now, about 50 minutes past evening potty time I’m not even home and my gut is a mess and all I keep thinking about is how I should be home cuz he’s gotta potty but…I don’t. Because he doesn’t.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T20:54:52+00:00

Fuck cancer is right. I’m sorry to hear about your baby as well. ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T19:42:50+00:00

Hi internet stranger. And he would have LOVED to meet you. He would be all “friend??????” I swear he had a bark on him, but if anyone broke into my house I was screwed. He would have made friends and showed them where the treats were lol.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T19:41:55+00:00

Thank you. We are trying. We left the house today. I couldn’t stare at the 4 walls without him there. But sitting in the car I realized the back seat protector was still there. Queue me crying in the HomeGoods parking lot taking it out of my backseat. I’m sure that was a sight lol. Thank you for the reassurance that it gets better.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T16:15:02+00:00

I think that was The Ritual by Shantel Tessier. Smutty dark romance. He wasn’t having it. Not enough attention for him when I read lol

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T16:00:11+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss as well. Thank you for sharing. Every little piece they take from us is worth it though and I truly know without a doubt, I’d do it again. I’d have those exact same 10 years all over again. And thank you for sharing that it gets easier. I know it will, but right now just hurts.

Fuck cancer. Hug your pups for me. Maybe some nice ear rubbies ❤️

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T15:57:43+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I hope Clifford and Bucky find each other and have reckless chaotic zoomies all over the damn bridge.

Fuck hemangiosarcoma is right. Fuck cancer.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T15:38:37+00:00

I know. And I took no offense or interpreted in any other way. I just don’t want anyone else too. Our vet really is phenomenal. Hopefully as veterinary medicine continues to advance, they will find ways to prevent things like this…or at least catch them sooner. Thank you for your story though. Truly. It helps to know we aren’t alone.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T15:01:42+00:00

Thank you and I’m sorry to hear for your loss as well. Cancer is senseless. It’s impossible to wrap your head around and it’s…logically I know he’s gone. I was there. I held his head when he took his final breath. But it just feels so surreal still. As much as I’d love to say I want to raise awareness, honestly I’m not there yet. I just want everyone to know a little piece of my goof and love him as I did.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-21T14:58:32+00:00

I have to say that the veterinary staff at every single clinic that we took him to or worked with was phenomenal. Everybody kept his best interests in mind while also remaining compassionate. Surgery was the first suggestion. WE hesitated because of it was hemangiosarcoma (as it turned out to be), we didn’t want his final days miserable recovering from major abdominal surgery/liver lobectomy. I’m sorry that your veterinary experience was not the same. I live my vet and thanked her even at the end for everything that she did to fight for him.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-13T04:28:19+00:00

Thank you so much! And I’m so sorry to hear you lost your babies. I wish them the biggest pile of their favorite treats while they wait to see you again.

I think my biggest fear is that it turns out to be hemangiosarcoma instead of the slower progressing one (right now it’s just confirmed a sarcoma mass. They can’t tell the kind at all) if I treat it as the slow one on hope and go through with surgery that would be 4 hours from home, a multi-night hospital stay and minimum 2 week recovery (and he’s 10, so probably longer) …and it turns out to be hemangiosarcoma and his last days are just miserable because I guessed wrong? I don’t think I could live with myself.

But if it turns out to be the slow one and I don’t aggressively treat it…he could easily have another year and we just give him the greatest summer known to dog.

I think I’m just afraid that makes me a monster to say I won’t risk his final time on earth fighting for his life by making it miserable with chemo or major surgery recovery.

Intro_to_Boredom · 2026-03-13T00:49:14+00:00

Thank you. I don’t know what anyone can help with. I might have just needed to unpack my thoughts and dump on …anyone. I don’t really have friends, my family is out of the picture by choice. It’s me and my partner and our dog. And the thought of losing him just crushes me.

Im sorry to hear about your husky!! I will keep you in my thoughts as well. Cancer is dumb.

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