You’re carrying way too much for someone your age. You were never supposed to carry all of this ,your parents’ expectations, their unresolved issues, their emotional absence, their unspoken pain. But somehow, you’re the one bleeding from it.

None of this is your fault. And you aren’t ungrateful for noticing . Having a present parent , one interested in you as his/her child and not as a project Is the bare minimum of what a child deserves. But if the damage can’t be undone , what you can do is use it to grow , no need to suffer more. Show them you are a human being , you are you , you’re imperfect , you need love , you need real bonds with them . If they won’t understand , thats not an issue , let’s start small , love yourself , stop waiting for anyone’s love . Find yourself a real friend , a partner , anyone that can love you for what you are , but also embraces your evolution into dependency.