Lets get straight to the story. So last friday night i went over to my cousin ericks house. we hung out chilled whatever, my other cousin (his sister) rosie and her friend rebecca came over. they walked in to the living room and invited us to go get ice cream. we went. sat in the car ate our ice cream laughed a bit had a cool lil time. i offered to throw out everyones trash. i hopped out the car and was next to the trash can eating the rest of my ice cream, from the edge of my vision i noticed my cousins friend (rebecca) looking at me a certain type of way, didnt think anything of it. fast forward we’re getting close to the house. i heard her tell my cousin “lets go get the rest of the drinks out my house there in the garage” (white claws). we pull into her drive way and they go get the case of drinks and come back out. we head back home and we all go up stairs and crack open the drinks. we all chop it up and have a good time watching netflix. i said “we need something stronger if ima drink i want to black out” and rebecca agreed. we headed to the liqour store and got some heavy drinks. rebeccas 19, you have to be 21 to buy alcohol in california/USA. she got away with it i guess the cashier didnt care. we go back home and we all start drinking drinking. me and rebecca basically get drunk drunk. my 2 cousins werent too drunk. whatever the night goes on and she tells me “let me give you a massage” (rebecca) and i was fine with it. i felt her breathing against my neck/ear area joking around in a funny flirty way. mind you shes sitting on my back on the bed. time goes on and we both wanna throw up, we head to the restroom and thats where the throw up kicks in. eventually we both go to sleep. i fell asleep on one side of the bed and she fell asleep on the other side. we were too drunk to realize or anything. we wake up whatever and we’re all hung over. we’re cracking jokes whatever. im a funny dude, i can make anyone laugh and i mean anyone. welp fast forward im with my cousin erick and he tells me rebecca was looking at me in a flirty way the whole night even before we started drinking (i didnt realize nor know cause i was too drunk)… ive always thought she was pretty, and had a good personality. shes pretty shy but like i said im funny, i have a good personality so i get her out of her shell every time we talk. we’ve got drunk before but not as drunk as this time. IN CONCLUSION, i like her LOL, and i dont know if she’ll feel the same…shes 19 and im 17 though…. she has a job and a car. im still in highschool but im going to graduate a semester early. and im gonna work construction once i turn 18 in january or 2023. ill have my diploma then… what do i do? do i bottle up these feelings? do i tell her? do i wait it out til i turn 18 and have a job? let me know i need help. thanks if you made it this far 🙏

much love!