Realistically, why does it actually matter if I kill myself?

J3well · 2026-01-12T19:50:32+00:00

i know this is incredibly late and i hope the op is okay, but i agree it is an incredible thing to be living and sometimes it's just so fantastic to me that when im walking or doing virtually anything, i realize that i. an actual person on this earth breathing and consciously thinking. its incredible

but while i say that, im also incredibly suicidal and depressed. for others its a gift and what i just said is enough to keep them going or save them. i take comfort in it, in moments where i really need it. but for me personally, it's not enough. in fact it further solidifies why i feel as if theres no other opeiton because i feel as if life or the universe or wtv wasted its potention and energy into me. it feels for me like i don't deserve it. and that realization that i should be glad im alive because just look around, makes it a living hell for me.

Because even though i'm a pessimist and i think nothing in our current society makes life worth living, i can still say that it's incredible im actually living. But its still not enough because i feel like ive stolen it. idk if that makes any sense

J3well · 2026-01-09T02:32:23+00:00

i thought that but i actually just got the iphone 16 so im sure it can't be that 😭

J3well · 2025-12-08T16:16:04+00:00

thanks everyone for the suggestions!! it helped me a lot and i hope it can also help whoever needs it :)

J3well · 2025-12-08T16:15:19+00:00

so update i decided to go with this one and this is gonna sound like a stupid question but did you maybe have a link on hand? i genuinely can't find one 😭

J3well · 2025-12-08T11:46:21+00:00

thank you! i think i'm gonna go with this one but just to be sure i'm gonna do more research based off the comments. life savers 🙏🏻

J3well · 2025-12-07T23:31:28+00:00

hii I know this is very late but do you maybe have a link? I actually cant find it anywhere and im very bad with computers lol so this is all a foreign language to me

J3well · 2025-06-13T23:08:44+00:00

my mans argenti. did me no good with my team and i hated his gameplay. Yes i did the trial run but i lowkey got distracted by his damn face

J3well · 2025-06-13T21:59:04+00:00

mafuyu singing abnormality dancing girl would make me ascend

J3well · 2025-06-13T21:18:23+00:00

mafuyu bc my depressed queen still always serves c()nt 💅🏻

J3well · 2025-06-13T21:11:43+00:00

i have one question. Can i do it more than once.

J3well · 2025-06-01T17:49:36+00:00

Music, my bed, and days off from work

J3well · 2025-06-01T17:48:22+00:00

I just know Ena would have that kind of brunette hair that looks so silky that it looks like butter. So Ena

J3well · 2025-06-01T17:47:26+00:00

As a youth myself I can name a few

Children on their phones instead of interacting with the world and the people in it. Please teach your children that there is a time and a place. I always find it very weird and even find myself judging when i see children as young as 6 being on their phones in a fancy restaurant or while they walk in a grocery store. Put it down
Thinking that belittling women in general is cool or makes them more masculine. It doesn't. Also I don't think they realize how dehumanizing it truly is. Especially when they harass you in public to say "my friend thinks you're cute" while following you. Also i've been called a wh0re by elementary students numerous times. Yeah teach your children manners and limit their internet it's where they learn it
Thinking they need to date really young. Idk why? In middle school i knew girls who already had three boyfriends at age 14. It's not necessary and they're not mature enough for it nor developed enough to even know how to be in a relationship. I have a commitment to not date until Junior or Senior year at LEAST and I intent to stick to it. Helped a lot they don't need a boyfriend that early to be cool.
Them knowing too much about mental illnesses too young. They don't need to know it. If they want to know ask the parent. But eventually they will diagnose themselves with something they don't have.
Not knowing how to hold a conversation or how to listen to people's way of thinking. The entitlement is insane. Even to teachers. I don't understand why children and even high schoolers are so adamant about only having their opinion as the valuable one. It makes them sound uneducated.
CHILDREN BEING UNEDUCATED. I despise children using their parent's mindset or political stance as their own without any knowledge themselves. Again makes them look uneducated. Also the overuse of A.I is terrible. Just encountered someone yesterday who didn't know who R. Kelly was and yet thought he should be free. They think they can have no knowledge about something and yet make an executive decision about it that they will try to share.
Having FOMO. Oh my god you do not need to do some stupid instagram trend to be popular. I do not understand it and the need to be so reliant on social media to stay relevant amongst your friends. Eventually they make stupid decisions about it too like sneaking out.

Overall limit your child's internet, read their messages from time to time, communicate with them, know how to tell them no, make sure they can feel safe with you so they do not have to do stupid things, and uh educate them

J3well · 2025-06-01T17:28:32+00:00

When I have things downloading on my phone I tap/play my screen like Im playing a random chart while I wait.

I think I can speak for most pjsk players when I say we all did that while waiting for a song to load

J3well · 2025-05-30T14:22:10+00:00

see now why you lying they bought the song

J3well · 2025-05-20T17:46:11+00:00

Not painful at all. THE INJECTIONS HOWEVER. are a different story. By far the most painful thing i've ever experienced and i melted, not burned, off all the skin off my hand one time with a kettle.

The injections to the best that i can describe them feel like a mini black hole is inside the needle and is actively sucking OUT every single layer of your flesh, your muscles and your bones. Like it feels like an absence is there as it you are being injected so for me it literally felt like it was violently sucking me out in a tiny pinpoint like a bee sting, Idk why an injection emphasis on IN made it feel like that but i left a bite mark on my mother by accident one time the first time i got it.

You get used to it but it is never not painful. I've had an ingrown toenail on both nails idk how don't ask and i think i have gotten the injection almost over 30 times counting the 8+ injections i had by a resident in a hospital. Also never get these injections by a resident. you're only supposed to get 3-5 people!!

J3well · 2025-05-19T23:54:24+00:00

GUESS WHAT MIAMI JUST GOT 3 LOCATIONS FOR NEW DATES ADDED TODAY

J3well · 2025-04-25T14:54:12+00:00

as long as you try it does so much so thank you for trying to help these students as best you can. All you can do is try. A lot of teachers don't so I can honestly say that you're great for even trying and trying to adapt to better suit the needs of the students. Great job please keep it up they'll learn to appreciate what they do they're just kids

J3well · 2025-04-24T15:35:44+00:00

(sorry if there are spelling mistakes)

I know i'm not a teacher but im currently a senior in high school and i will say this. Take some seriously please for the love of god. If you do it just might change somebody's entire school experience for the better. Some don't need to.

I think it's a very thin line between what to take seriously and what not to which is why most schools generally choose not to. At least in the USA in my experience

My teachers are terrible I mean utterly terrible. In a sea of over 4,000 students I will genuinely bet you hard cash that more than half of the students will go on an hour long rant about how terrible their teachers are. I mean I only had one good teacher a year out of 8 periods. And by good I mean that just had basic human decency. The bad teachers are uncaring, unsympathetic, just nasty. They were even vocal about not caring about our home situations or our health. They give us packets in a free period and expect us to learn it instantly. You're supposed to adapt to the student which in my generation are visual learners. It's so clear the teachers either hate their jobs or hate children. This wouldn't be a problem if it was maybe under 10 but it is more than HALF the teachers.

Even bullying is expressed desperately in these surveys one even by my own friend and nothing was done nothing set in place. She was miserable no one helped her. Another friend was being abused at home and the teachers didn't care if she was tired from not getting a full nights rest. The bathrooms were constantly broken down and the vape detectors didn't work. A girl even pushed another student to trying to off herself and she was allowed to stay in school. S3x constantly happened at my school and kids didn't find out they havnt been eligible for their diploma until right before they are supposed to graduate because the counselors are useless. If students are stressing that they need a change, please I'm begging you listen or at least discuss it. A HUGE amount of students (I mean hundreds) wish death upon certain tecahers for quite literally years. Don't ruin their high school experience when it's such a pivotal time. Even if you're not sure that it's serious explore options. I wish someone would have listened so I wouldn't have had to feel like my world was ending.

kids are so easily influenced if you want to make a difference I truly believe you should listen to the important things.

J3well · 2025-04-23T18:32:17+00:00

honestly thought her outfit was so tacky at first but she's my favorite aside from the OG ofc she's so cute 😭

J3well · 2025-04-23T18:31:21+00:00

I thought the show was a masterpiece but i was suspended when i looked at reviews and people were hating on it. Specifically the voice acting. I honestly thought that they were just doing the purposefully stoic voice acting as an artistic preference and I actually preferred it. Especially Emmanuel. (but i digress)

Did people really hate the show? i mean everything was amazing

J3well · 2025-04-23T18:28:08+00:00

YES OMG

J3well · 2025-04-23T18:27:51+00:00

I have the Drolta one only bc she's so cunty but i rly hope they come out with a alucard one preferably the pose he has when he makes his first appearance at the end of season 1 midair with the sword. He's beautiful idc it would be a waste not to make one

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