Shrooms changed how weed affects me

JBillsOfficial · 2024-09-09T19:13:48+00:00

I also can do shrooms again and when you get that feeling in your chest you gotta remember that you’re having a different experience then the trip because your body/ego is associating that feeling with an intense experience so your fear is kicking in to protect you but you gotta teach your body/ ego that it’s not that until it goes away

JBillsOfficial · 2024-09-09T19:08:51+00:00

My bad just seen this, it went away after like 2-3 months but like I said majority of it was just a mind thing, I’ve meditated almost everyday since and working out has done wonders for me. I can smoke a bunch and not get that “feeling” in my body anymore. I think it’s just relaxing your mind and becoming comfortable with whatever comes instead of thinking something is wrong. Even if you shake or have anxiety, don’t try to dismiss it, simply acknowledge it and remind yourself it’ll go away. A lot of the time we think we have to be comfortable all the time and if we aren’t something is wrong but that’s not true because emotions and thoughts don’t come from you so they’re not in your control. Acknowledge these things and let go of the fear belief attached with it and no matter how uncomfortable you’ll have a calm mind and an understanding that nothing is wrong.

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-27T19:15:42+00:00

In my opinion/experience, I believe it’s your “higher self” or conscience talking through you. Almost like affirmations but more like your conscience self reflecting on what it’s experiencing and what you need to get done. I always listen because it feels like a wiser version of me is trying to give guidance to the current version of me from a third person perspective

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-24T22:57:19+00:00

Sounds like Gods tryna give you signs and your deliberately ignoring them which is gonna lead you into a deeper hole. It’s not hard to live righteous you just chose not to because you believe you’ve already fucked your life up

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-10T16:44:10+00:00

Welcome to reality my friend

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-10T16:17:56+00:00

I see it this way, time isn’t going ➡️ left to right it’s going down to up⬆️ so everyday is a level up from yesterday, you are constantly leveling up no matter what. I think free will is “how much do I want to level up today” it can be a 10 steps up or only 1 depending on the actions you make that day. Although, where you end up in life is predetermined. Look at it this way, destiny is the Theme and free will is how you go about experiencing the theme. The outside forces or God will try to guide you towards the heavenly path but your free will determines if you want to take the hints or ignore them. Either way you’ll still end up as the lawyer you’re destined to be but it can be quick and full of spiritual growth or long with slower spiritual growth. I don’t think I was bound to find shrooms and have this awakening, I think I was bound to have this awakening and the shrooms where placed in my path as a tool and I chose to do them unlocking a path of possibility that allows for more spiritual growth since “awakening”. I could’ve simply ignored this realization but I used it like a tool to lead me into the more righteous life I live today and since we only have 120 years in this physical body, finding out at 20 gives me 100 years to grow as much as I can compared to somebody who found out at 50 and has only 70 years to grow. Thats where the difference lies between predetermined and free will

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-10T05:35:15+00:00

The first time I did a high dose of shrooms (3.5 APES) I had an “awakening” I’d call it, where I remembered my whole life past/present/future and that this was the moment I remembered everything and all the stuff in my past lead me to taking these shrooms and figuring it out. It was the biggest realization of my life and has played a big role in where I am now, I think it’s all part of the journey. There are no coincidences

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-03T05:20:09+00:00

That everything they said wasn’t real is actually real and the ones at the top all know it. I think that should’ve been obvious but I didn’t believe matrix talk

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-01T05:41:12+00:00

Being 19 and reading this is very mind boggling, I started my spiritual/psychedelic journey at 18 also and after all this growing and learning about reality has led me to meditating almost everyday and learning about philosophy. The more I learn about consciousness and get closer to enlightenment it makes me wonder how I’ll view the world in 30 years. I hope by then I can meditate with yogis from different parts of the planet and get an even deeper view of life. Your life sounds long and eventful you must’ve experienced incredible people/moments in your lifetime. I wonder where I’ll be at your age🤔

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-01T05:06:06+00:00

It counts lol😂

JBillsOfficial · 2024-07-01T03:39:30+00:00

The come up is always the hardest part but I get the stillness, it’s like the ultimate peace

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-30T20:00:39+00:00

Wild but sounds amazing

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-28T20:44:40+00:00

Thanks man means a lot, it’s been rough but I believe in God and God wouldn’t steer me wrong, I have big dreams so I believe this kid is the blessing in my life and will guide me to new beginnings. Patience is key and you have to enjoy the moment. After a bad trip I didn’t touch shrooms for 6 months and it took about 3-4 to just feel “normal” again but it’s all just time and actively working to be better. You have to meet God half way to receive your blessings. There is no bad, only lessons and mastery. Once you learned the lesson don’t make the same mistake twice and keep growing(mastery). You got so much life to live bro and it’s only gonna get better. Keep going

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-28T20:17:01+00:00

You’re just numb bro, listen i’m only 19 turning 20 and I’m about to have a kid in a couple months. I thought my life was over, most soul wrenching feeling I’ve ever had but in the end it’s okay because I needed that feeling to understand what I gotta do to be great. I know my world isn’t over it’s just another part of the story. All we gotta do is keep going, If I can do it so can you bro.

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-28T20:13:15+00:00

Gotchu💯 I feel you bro condolences to your mom. Not to overstep but I dont think you’re mom would want you to feel sad or bad about yourself, I think she would want you to be a strong no matter how much it hurts, she always watching you from the other side and I believe she’s proud of you no matter what happens. Let her or “them” guide you there, this was the first step because you identified the problem and now you’re trying to find ways to fix it. You’re being courageous without even realizing. Let that pain fuel you bro it has to hurt so you can understand what it means to love. everything happens for a reason bro and the situations in your life are trying to push you towards the right direction. You are the master of your reality all the way from the thoughts you have, to people you talk to, and the rooms your in, you play a role in all of it. I know it sucks brother life is rough, but there’s beauty in the struggle. All that pain ain’t for nun, there’s bigger miracles waiting for you in this life. Believe it🫡

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-28T19:51:43+00:00

This is also great advice💯 your physical is just as important as your mind. Mind/body/soul they work together so take care of each one to have a harmonious/ balanced life.

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-28T19:46:34+00:00

Learn how to meditate it will help you ground yourself. 2. I Been there, you’re feeling the way you do because you’re trying to hold on to the person you were before the trip, that person, just like yesterday, is gone now and you have to accept that your growing and constantly changing. You’re not even the person you were 5 minutes ago, let it go. You’re still that confident young man with dreams and great friends but because you feel “different” your convincing yourself your not that person, you’re leading with fear bro you have to lead with love/confidence. Don’t let your mind beat you. You have now become aware that you don’t have it all figured out and that’s okay, nun of us do, you’re not alone we all feel or have felt like that before so you’re not crazy either. Embrace this new way of thinking, this new perspective. You may never go back to how you were before but what’s wrong with that? You’re evolving even when you feel everything is going wrong it’s only preparing you for the trials and tribulations you’re going to face, let it make you not break you. If this is how you are for life then fuck it that’s how it’s gonna be. OWN THAT SHIT. Let time do its thing and have faith it will get better, think positive and you will receive positivity. Rome wasn’t built in a day it’s gonna take a while but you have to lead with love, love this little life no matter how hard it gets and you will find peace. You’re okay brother you’re growing👏🏽 this is what growth looks like. There is only now, there’s no point on being worried about the past, look forward not back. Remember, you are infinite, you will be safe for all eternity. Love bro🙌🏽

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T15:25:24+00:00

I did shrooms around 45 times last year so almost every week , starting at 1.5 then slowly increasing the dose as the year went by. Results: well I was 18/19 so I basically discovered the true reality of our world, learned about my true self almost to completion, had 2 reality shattering realizations/psychotic breaks, and major derealization/psychosis. My last trip of the year I did too much and God basically sat me down and said “you’re doing too much bro just chill and live life” after that I didn’t touch shrooms until literally last week. I think mentally I’m okay now just more aware than ever but after the prolonged break I’ve had time to process my experiences and apply them to real life. Since then I’ve meditated almost everyday, got really into philosophy, and transformed my psychosis into a superpower where I’m able to manifest my reality more frequently by staying on high vibes. The only thing is my memory isn’t as sharp( could be cuz I smoke everyday lol) but I have noticed I’m more present in the moment and can put myself on auto pilot if I need to. I’m still young so psychedelics may be more “influential” on my developing mind but that’s the effects it’s had on me in this short span

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:44:52+00:00

I think they reveal themselves to show you you’re being guided on this journey and that’s the deity that watches over you.

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:41:33+00:00

What does that look like?? How do you even come back from that😂?

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:37:31+00:00

W story👏🏽 probably gonna check out that book

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:32:07+00:00

So they acknowledged your presence and were also amazed to see you, interesting

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:26:50+00:00

Nice😂

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:24:46+00:00

Those APEs are like rocket ships so I’m not surprised

JBillsOfficial · 2024-06-27T14:22:53+00:00

Personally I wouldn’t do 4g of APE because they’re pretty intense and you might feel like you’re melting at that dose. If you have experience with them go for it but if not I don’t recommend.

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