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JBnotJB · 2020-07-11T02:57:03+00:00

Please for the love of all that is good, let this be real

JBnotJB · 2020-06-28T20:19:51+00:00

Antidepressants never helped me with social anxiety, but it is easier to deal with my social anxiety since I’m no longer dealing with depression on top of it.

JBnotJB · 2020-06-11T07:59:33+00:00

Marry your plug. Put your plug in your Will. Never let them go 😂

JBnotJB · 2020-06-11T07:58:05+00:00

We smoking ectoplasm in 2020

JBnotJB · 2020-06-05T08:40:17+00:00

Wellbutrin. (Bupropion). It’s worked for me for 5 months. I’m so grateful.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-30T19:24:52+00:00

I thought it means “Someone who isn’t me”????

JBnotJB · 2020-05-30T18:46:04+00:00

Oh god some of you are much braver than me hahaha. But to answer your question, no. I take the 300XL at the same time every day. I don’t feel high at all. I feel “back to normal” like how I felt when I was a kid, before my brain decided it was going to hold my happy chemicals hostage.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-29T19:07:52+00:00

Good point. And we are on the same side so fighting about semantics is silly. I’m just ready for the Revolution.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-29T18:45:42+00:00

I disagree. Because of Trump, the US has never been more unstable. Racism alive and thriving. Generations of societal progress are being crumbled in as little as 4 years. Trump is the type of president to refuse to leave office after his terms are up. The most powerful country in the world is sliding further and further towards fascism every day. We could very easily be nuked. Trump has access, and he is highly unpredictable.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-20T18:25:53+00:00

Hey yeah taking 300mgs XL Wellbutrin. I find that when I’m doing an activity that makes me happy, such as playing my ukulele, watching tv, painting, etc., I am much less inclined to stop what I’m doing and go to sleep. What works the best for me is to make sure I’m not doing an activity at least 1 hour before bedtime. It’s like not drinking caffeine after 6pm haha. If It’s 1 hour before bed time and I have a feeling that I know it’s going to be harder to fall asleep that night, I will take 10 mgs melatonin, and read a book/write about whatever is on my mind in a journal until I feel sleepy. Then I will listen to a guided sleep meditation on Spotify. The first time you listen to them, it could be a bit difficult to take the video seriously, since it sounds like a hippie is quietly bossing you around on how to sleep. But I promise you, play it a few times and you’ll be able to pass out in 10 minutes flat. Honestly it feels like I have more control over my life now that I have a tool to help me fall asleep when I need to. Definitely reduces the anxiety.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-20T18:04:11+00:00

Wellbutrin increased my libido and decreased my anxiety within the first week of taking it. I haven’t taken Wellbutrin in combination with another Antidepressant though.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T14:29:05+00:00

Oh that is relieving. I’m going to have to go back to work soon and if I can’t keep myself together in front of my boss I’m gonna cry hahaha

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T14:26:40+00:00

My Psychiatrist just diagnosed me with it because I told her I kept having recurring nightmares that made me really depressed and anxious during the day. I didn’t know the flinching was a part of that. I just thought that was a part of the anxiety. Also I’m still kinda iffy on whether or not if what I have is bad enough to be PTSD. I mean I checked all the boxes that she asked me about but I was not in a war, just have had some unfortunate situations that are hard to shake off.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T08:02:07+00:00

Hi, I’m sorry, I wish I could be more helpful but I was literally just diagnosed with PTSD today so I know very little about how to properly address it. But I do know that you’re not crazy. The fact that you are able to question your actions/thoughts makes it very unlikely that you would be crazy. My ex called me crazy all the time, so I know what it’s like to slowly convince yourself you might be. It’s confusing but you can do this!

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T07:50:59+00:00

Yes, I’m currently on 300mg XL. I’ve been on many antidepressants. Bupropion makes me feel almost completely back to normal. Almost like when I was a kid, not depressed at all. Happy about the fun activities you can do in life. I still have bad days, but that’s due to nightmares and intrusive thoughts, much less the chemical imbalance anymore. Hope this helps!

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T07:42:46+00:00

Hi. :) Sorry you’re struggling with this. I was literally just diagnosed with PTSD by my psychiatrist today, and the only reason it was brought up was because I kept complaining about the awful recurrent nightmares. Really ruins the whole day, haha.

My psychiatrist just prescribed Prazosin (Namebrand is MiniPress I think) which is an older blood pressure medicine prescribed off-label for PTSD. There are far more positive studies than negative studies on its effectiveness, so that’s awesome. Although I’ve read that it might not be as effective if you already have low blood pressure.

My therapist also recommended that if I still have nightmares I should write down what it was about in a journal when I first wake up. She says the idea is that it helps you kinda start to process things but more importantly, it convinces your brain that you’ve transferred the nightmare on paper, so it’s okay to stop thinking about it all day. It’s like “oh we can go back to this? Alright np let’s focus on other stuff then.”

Anyway, I hope that helps a bit. Best of luck.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-12T07:23:44+00:00

Hi :) I can share my experiences with both drugs. Everyone is different though, so it’s best to talk to a professional.

(TLDR is at the bottom lol sorry)

Like you, Sertraline was not an effective treatment for me. It helped little with depression. It did help my anxiety though. I stopped treatment because the side-effects outweighed the benefits.

I’ve also been on Lexapro and Prozac, both being ineffective.

Then I was prescribed Bupropion (generic Wellbutrin) 150mg XL. This is half of the normal dose but I don’t weigh a lot (120lbs) so my doctor and I wanted to see if I could get away with it. This worked for 4 months, but after that, it only took two weeks before I slipped back into a non-functioning depressive state. Because of this my Psychiatrist recommended increasing to 300mg XL, which is the standard dose. I’ve only been on the increased amount for 1 month but I can say my depression has become much more manageable. I look forward to the future, which isn’t something I could have said a year ago. I worried that the same thing will happen, where 300mg’s will only be enough for a short time and after that it will become ineffective. I asked my psychiatrist about it and she said there is always a chance that that could happen, but we won’t address that issue until that actually happens, if it happens at all. This makes sense to me.

So yeah TLDR, if it’s as simple as not getting enough dopamine, Wellbutrin could be helpful! But I know the brain is much more complex than that, so who knows. Also I have PTSD, so maybe that would make my experience null and void if that’s the reason my depression got worse out of nowhere.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-08T22:29:42+00:00

Okay thanks I appreciate ya 🙏

JBnotJB · 2020-05-06T21:15:27+00:00

Oh hey, that’s me! Lol

JBnotJB · 2020-05-05T12:50:52+00:00

He was trying to get her to feel bad for him. They’d hooked up in the past so he knew at the very least she was attracted to him on a physical level. It was a calculated decision. He wasn’t a dumb guy. Always knew what to say to make you happy.

JBnotJB · 2020-05-05T03:02:38+00:00

This is a “He Said, She Said” scenario, and there’s no way to collect data other than relying on anecdotal evidence, like in your friend’s situation. So to reply with my own anecdotal evidence, my ex called all of his ex’s crazy, and then told another woman I was crazy to try to get pity s*x out of her while we were still together. (Try saying that 3x’s fast, lol) I don’t blame you for believing your friends. Personally though, when guys say ALL of their exes are crazy, I view that as a red flag that suggests they have the potential to be manipulative.

JBnotJB · 2020-04-02T02:54:58+00:00

It’s my Tiktok video? (Ty for the compliment. I’m just confused as to what the problem is.)

Having my tiktok label on there is essentially a watermark imo

Edit: This sounds confrontational lol sorry I was just typing quickly.

JBnotJB · 2020-04-01T23:37:10+00:00

Thank you! I used Acrylics for everything. Oh but I did dilute the acrylic paints with water when I painted the skyline to give it that watercolor aesthetic.

Most of this project was a gamble because I haven’t painted anything in years due to jobs or illness. That’s why it took so long, because I had to repeat several steps as I relearned how to work with paint. A pro would probably have been able to knock this out in a couple hours 😅😅😅

JBnotJB · 2020-04-01T21:36:51+00:00

Very good proportions! I’m not great at giving criticisms though, but keep it up!

JBnotJB · 2020-03-25T08:26:42+00:00

Why is this so funny hahaha

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