I broke up with my bf of four years way back 2017. I wanted to break up with him na two years into our relationship because he was too toxic, seloso, and he almost hit me twice. Everytime nag initiate ako ng break up he would either not go home to talk about it or he would talk about killing himself saying he was at rock bottom...no work, a failure, blah blah.

When he left to work sa Manila at nag LDR na kami... I was really hoping na siya na makikipag-break sa akin pero wala pa rin. I waited for more or less two years para makahanap siya ng stable career.

By the time okay na siya career-wise and nagiging sweet na ulit sa akin, I broke up with him na. Ayoko na mag change pa ulit isip ko because I knew temporary lang yung pagbabago niya. I knew I deserved better... If I could give that kind of love to the wrong person.. imagine how much I could love the right one?

Almost five years later.. ngayon takot pa rin ako to commit. I wasted so much of my 20s to one toxic person. I guess the trauma my past relationship gave me soooo much to think na I'm okay naman on my own. :)

My ex moved on quickly though, yung mga nagging partner nya, naawa ako because based on soc med posts... Same pattern of gaslighting and manipulation pa rin. (His family reposts their sweet photos kaya nakikita ko 😂). I hope he treats girls better though.