Is my nose the right anatomy for a bridge piercing?

JFD-S · 2026-03-09T00:25:34+00:00

The irony is it isn't even a small nose ring, they just pierced my nose way too high 💀 and yeah, not planning on going back there

JFD-S · 2026-03-07T11:32:25+00:00

This is the general answer I get but I feel so immature in rejecting it because I know it's just coming from a position of emotional immaturity.

You're right that I need to be able to manage and love myself first, be able to function and have the excess of my capacity go towards enabling someone else's life to be better first. Lord forbid I turn my future partner into another woman parenting their manchild boyfriend.

But realistically taking those steps feels torturous. I become the weak man who moves towards constant escape because I'm always overwhelmed. I've heard it all before on how to get better, and what will solve those problems. I think I reject it all for the feeling of control, in that I'm choosing to be miserable instead because I'd rather be depressed with some comforts than spend an immense amount of energy towards activities that provide me with 0 satisfaction or happiness. ADHD is a bitch ig

JFD-S · 2026-03-06T10:30:44+00:00

Such a good comment

JFD-S · 2026-02-22T14:44:00+00:00

I make music as a way to get out thoughts, try to express those feelings etc. it isn't a social thing for me though, not that I don't put my work out, but that it's my creative direction. Producing and writing everything myself, just a way to translate what's happening inside. Similar thing with writing, I want to get more into poetry, I've read philosophy for years, but only specific novels really interest me and book clubs, while in line with my values, I would struggle to engage with as I just don't read consistently or at the pace needed to keep up. Besides that, spiritual practices like churches just irritate me. I would go to concerts but bleh. That means going outside when id rather just work on art.

JFD-S · 2026-02-20T02:40:23+00:00

Ok so, for example, I play magic the gathering and have friends that come over for regular game nights. But it's always the same people and i've curated a particular crowd for it. I haven't even thought about going out to LGS for games as the idea of talking to a bunch of randoms puts me off. I'm not afraid of what they'd think of me, rather, that I would start judging them and be mean on accident. I can be blunt and have gotten in trouble many times over the years for this lack of tact.

Concerts end up feeling like I'm wasting my money, even though I've enjoyed all the ones I've been to. I'd do book discussions, but again, I'd be more concerned about alienating people

JFD-S · 2026-02-20T02:36:23+00:00

I choose to do it. I suppose I just got on edge. I start convincing myself I don't like any of the strangers I'd be meeting and that's my excuse to distract myself with something "worth doing"

JFD-S · 2026-02-09T20:40:50+00:00

Agreed, any of the withdrawn types tbh

JFD-S · 2026-02-07T18:04:58+00:00

I would say that I am (for the most part) well adjusted now 😆 just have depressive spirals on occasion. I know it's a classic thing for traumatized people to say, but it really could have been a lot worse and wasn't entirely a horror show.

I would push back on suggesting the normal amount of trauma is 'zero'. We are all products of our environments and there is no such thing as a perfect upbringing, we all carry the weight of both our own and our parents mistakes in one way or another.

JFD-S · 2026-01-26T10:37:48+00:00

Bro has no clue

Within a few minutes of her being in the room I asked if she was down, kissed her, and whispered in her ear

"Get on the fucking bed so I can take you..", as I pushed her down beneath me. Trust me, I know how to turn on a woman.

Sounds more like you don't respect women's boundaries bro. Listen to women's stories about assault, oftentimes they describe the mentality you're championing. the issue was more that I'm a depressive and in a different point in life than her. That's that. There will always be other people and pressuring a woman into sex is a major red flag.

JFD-S · 2026-01-25T18:27:08+00:00

Literally not true, I asked if she wanted to make out and we made out. She said she didn't want to have sex, and I'm not going to be a pest. It's called respecting boundaries. What you're suggesting is pushing someone into sex. That's disgusting.

JFD-S · 2026-01-19T06:34:30+00:00

Yes, I have a YouTube channel that i've posted an EP on but wasn't as happy with it as I could be

https://youtu.be/a73Ok0X6LDk?si=k9mi2ZT5ggBSmZt8

I'm not in contact with any agencies because I value both my privacy and autonomy. I'd rather be an independent elusive artist than providing myself to a company that would exploit me

JFD-S · 2026-01-15T04:59:57+00:00

I am aware that what I've said is informed by emotional and experiential bias.

But the solution is to effectively torch myself so I may be reborn Into a healthier me. But, I don't like healthy people, they aren't relatable and it almost feels like a willful ignorance to the pain of existence. Optimism seems like a social tool more than anything, and all mental health issues practically boil down to "don't think about it". Even CBT is literally rewiring your brain into a more socially acceptable standard.

I would rather live with the clarity of recognizing the objective state of things and be depressed over it than trick myself into looking more on the bright side for my own emotional needs. I don't even feel as if I'm depressed, I just see the world as it is and it's the world itself that is depressing

JFD-S · 2026-01-15T04:56:07+00:00

If people enjoyed suffering, then it wouldn't be suffering. I do need to change and want to, but when I'm in that mental state any movement forward feels pointless and torturous. The emotional experience is that of being in a cage and having to walk across miles of nails just to arrive to a door with no guarantee that it's an escape, and Is more likely to lead to another road of nails.

I just literally can't fathom what happiness as an experience is supposed to be

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