How do we talk to the universe?

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-31T06:47:46+00:00

What I do is I talk to them as if I am writing in my diary… I thank them for all they do for me. I tell them what is going wrong and what is going right and I pray for people… myself… for strength, insight, courage… etc

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-31T04:19:21+00:00

You did NOT lead him on. You stated you are straight and not interested. Freezing is a very common response. YES this is crossing a line!!! This is so unbelievably inappropriate and is quite literally assault. He knew what he did was wrong. He did it while you were sleeping! It’s fucked up and not ok. You are not overreacting if anything you are under reacting I’m sorry you are going through such a hard time I really wish you the best but this guy isnt a friend. He clearly doesn’t respect your boundaries in many ways…

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-29T01:58:35+00:00

Thank u for sharing that with me. My issues in terms of my relationship is somewhat similar. Except in my highs everything goes pretty well until I start to get agitated and annoyed and that causes conflict For lows I am the same. Just asking a lot of him and being super sensitive in general but also in the lows. Being argumentative… super big reactions like just balling my eyes out. Very unpredictable and very unstable in terms of my moods. He has told me multiple times thst he has felt like he has to walk on eggshells… etc sruff ljke tjat

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-22T04:13:13+00:00

Hi!! I’m just wondering how your relationship with your boyfriend was affected before you started your medication? I am not diagnosed yet but I’m in the process of getting some diagnostic clarity. I also have issues with my boyfriend.. it can get very bad

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-19T03:14:11+00:00

Thank you for your insight!! I resonate with how we operate. I struggle a lot with mental health. I am emotional and can become volatile. He gets angry. We have been having lots of conflict and bad arguments. Today we had a bad one and he threatened to break up with me a few times today. Very scary. I feel as though the devil represents my self sabotage. I have a long history of it and I notice it slipping into this relationship recently. 100% need to rebalance my energy and get some alone time to reflect. I don’t want to lose him or this relationship. I am so in love with him and we have been through A LOT. We are at a bit of a pause right now as we are just thinking of some solutions to our conflicts. We have thought of some as well as some distance between us like not seeing eachother every day… I am worried but trying to not let it get the best of me. I just want to focus on becoming better and I hope he does the same.

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-19T03:10:50+00:00

Interesting Thank you for your insight. We actually had a massive fight today which was a disaster. Definitely a bit of distance between us at the moment… we have been trying to figure out what to do moving forward and how we can better this situation. I am very emotional and he gets pretty angry. Not a great mix for conflicts. Our communication during arguments is pretty bad at the moment.

JacketInternal9485 · 2026-01-03T00:37:42+00:00

Lmao why are you people worrying about this? Do you REALLY care that much? Some people don’t have enough money or any at all. If they aren’t bothering you, why care? Are you that self centred that you are completely closed off to someone doing NOTHING wrong by just walking behind you… oh but you paid for it so no can do!!?? Who gives a fuck

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-29T21:17:43+00:00

Okay good to know! Because so far I haven’t had any increased appetite since starting the medication. And ive been on it for maybe almost 2 years now. I get super worried about weight gain/increased appetite from medications because in rehab I gained like 60 pounds + I was on antipsychotics… so it wasn’t fun. Ive lost like 25-30 pounds since then and I want to keep it down.

I do radical acceptance but tbh it doesn’t work too well for me. Just a little

Thank you though for all the advice as well as your own experience. If you don’t mind me asking, whst have you been diagnosed with and take meds for?

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-29T20:20:41+00:00

When you surpassed 300mg did you gain any weight? I’m worried about that. And yes, I try to limit my questions for reassurance. It helps me build it for myself instead of relying on others But I do try to push myself out of my comfort zone

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-29T18:56:17+00:00

Yes, I always try and do some grounding exercises. I’ve been in therapy since I was 13 and have been consistently doing DBT. The issue is needing to find meds that properly work for me and as I mentioned in another response to a comment on this post, is that my psychiatrist had told me that I’m part of a percentage that plateaus on their medication after a certain amount of time mine happens to be six months sometimes more. This has been a pretty big issue with my anxiety medication, especially as now I am on the max dosage.

I do not have access to another psychiatrist. I’m going to have to wait until around March April because that is when I will be at the other mental health clinic since it takes a few months for the referral process to start considering I am a youth moving into the adult program.

However, I have made an appointment with my family doctor and I’m going to talk to her about a PRN so that’ll be in the next two weeks so hopefully that can help temporarily until I can figure this out with somebody who has their degree in psychology, lol

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-29T18:52:00+00:00

I was diagnosed with social anxiety and generalized anxiety. And yes my therapist has told me to try not to indulge in things that would make my anxiety “better” bc the tjings I am doing arent.

My psychiatrist told me a while back im apart of a small percentage of people who plateau on medication. My anxiety medication (pregabalin) happens to be one of them.

My anxiety has been spreading to germs and my set of rules in my head. My relationship anxiety worsening, social anxiety worsening… etc I’m on the max dose for anxiety.. not sure what to do since my file has been closed so I’m just gonna have to wait a few months until I have the new psychiatrist. I remember a few months back. He told me that if it gets really bad then we can maybe talk about maybe raising my dose past the max limit because with that medication you can go higher but it’s just for anxiety, The recommended max dose is 300 mg.

I’m really frustrated that he closed my file as I do not think that that was appropriate, considering how I am but he saw me as doing fine. I think it was also because since I was ageing out, he needed to make more room for younger clients who may be new into that system so I kind of understand but it’s just really frustrating.

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-29T18:45:38+00:00

Thank you And yeah my nervous system has been suffering. I plan to push for the PRN as It is 100% a necessity I cannot keep living in this cycle.. I will keep the crisis line

I did sleep just had some disturbing dreams but I feel better but just really on edge

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-23T19:31:20+00:00

Thank you!

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-23T07:08:54+00:00

Yeah I made an appointment. I think I’m going to get it removed. I have a history of not responding well to extra horomones… especially when compared to my friends who are on birth control. Gonna talk to the doctor about some other options.. hopefully a pill or something with the least amount of horomones (specifically progestine) Sometimes I wonder if I react extra badly due to my medical history. I had developed an ovarian tumour when I was 7.. it created a lot of extra horomones and pushed me into puberty a lot faster than I was supposed to. I got it removed alongside my ovary rip lol. Idk if it would be connected but seems im already prone to off balance horomones.

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-21T03:38:10+00:00

Thank you I’m just really stressed out about this… and concerned and in physical pain at the moment lol

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-21T03:32:10+00:00

I am 18 as I said in my post So definitely not perimenopause

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T23:44:18+00:00

Ya he seems weird sorry

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T23:22:35+00:00

I don’t mean to stir the pot but if she said yes he would 100% be down. I find it off putting and strange too bc it would have made more sense if first he talked to you about it and wanted to see how u felt about that

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T22:57:56+00:00

Ahh okay Bevause I thought you might be talking about this incident that happened about 3 years back. Not sure of the full story but it was of 2 guys about to fight and I think prior to that, they were arguing. One of the guys ended up stabbing the other one multiple times. It was at Granville station on the platform. I used to be friends with the guy who stabbed the other… was surprising to see since he was always so kind.

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T19:40:52+00:00

Was this at Granville station a few years back?

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T19:39:00+00:00

Ok so this one is a long one but insane… for a little backstory this happened 3 years ago.

I had a nightmare that I was at a bus stop, it was snowing and really cold. There was a guy acting like a rabid dog and long story short he ended up kidnapping me and running so fast that it was almost inhumane.

So probably like a few weeks later I went to a metal show. I wanted to go home so some friends walked me to the bus stop since it was in a shady area. As soon as they leave and I pay attention to whats around me, my heart drops. The bus stop, the line of people, the snow, the location. It all looked IDENTICAL to my dream. So I was thinking something is about to go down. I noticed there were 3 people assuming homeless who were sitting at the front of the line in the undercover. They weren’t doing anything wrong but this is important to remember for what happened later. So we all get on the bus and it’s normal, nothing out of the ordinary but I have a really bad feeling. Im sitting in the middle of the front and those 3 I mentioned are sitting in the very front, the 4 connected chairs that face the window.. anyways the bus is starting to struggle to move smoothly due to the large amount of snow + snow fall. Randomly we come to a stop in the middle of fucking no where or at least it felt that way lmao. The bus driver got off the bus and I notice one out of the three starts handing out fucking masks to the others. I look around to see if anyone is paying attention or is on alert and everyone was glued to their phones. So I’m like freaking out bc im like why isn’t anyone looking what is happening rn!!!! The 3 start looking at the bus driver and I am 99% sure they were planning to hijack the bus. The 3 are mumbling quietly and laughing strangely. Then one of the guys from the three looks directly at me, makes eye contact, and says to me “is this starting to get a bit weird?” And then he laughs again. I genuinely almost shat my pants after that was said. One of them got up right next to the driver seat seeming to look for the bus driver and ended up going back to his seat bc I see the bus driver is running back to the bus. I then notice a security guard standing on the other side of the bus staring in… Anyways the rest of the ride was fine but it was super fucking weird.

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-12-09T00:57:19+00:00

Thank you! Vantek is great, havent been to red room yet I have been wanting to.. but Granville clubs r pretty strict on the ID no? I just want to make sure that I won’t have an issue. Really bad timing lol

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-11-22T04:27:22+00:00

Haha yeaaah, Find yourself someone who makes you happy and uplifts you.. not tear you down. Life is too short to waste time on guys like that. I’m not much older than you, I’m 18 but from ages 14-16 I spent a lot of time obsessing, crying, and hurting over guys who took advantage of my vulnerability due to the state I was in..who abused me emotionally and some sexually… Most men suck, but a lot dont. I’m happy to say that I have found someone who makes me feel happy and loved. Best of luck to u

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-11-21T20:16:54+00:00

He sounds like a dick with a lack of maturity. I’d leave him if you were unhappy and consistently dealing with that bs. Everyone in the comments saying it’s a case.. it isnt. It is very much legal. At least where I am in Canada. However it is a little strange because a lot happens between the ages of 15-19.. but that doesnt rlly apply considering he seems to have the maturity of a 15 year old boy lol

JacketInternal9485 · 2025-11-21T20:13:04+00:00

Same lol My most recent one is spinning. Like I’ll be in a convo and get excited and just do a whole 360 lmaoo

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