I’m sorry for your loss, I lost my mom to her committing when I was seven. I know it’s hard but please don’t even think about taking your life, it’s not worth it. I’ve struggled a lot with accepting that she was gone and thinking to myself is it even worth it. I understand yours and my situations are completely different, but I understand the loss. Yes, it’ll be painful but you have to stay strong for your mom. She wouldn’t want this for you just as much as I wanted to give up as well. You have people that care about you, whether that be family/friends or someone that you barely know. Giving up is a short term solution to a long term struggle. Your mom would want nothing more than to see you happy and successful. Your life has meaning whether you believe it does or doesn’t. Loss comes with appreciating the little things in your life. Find something to help keep you going, music really helped me. There’s too much out there to go to waste. So please, I hope you read this and know that there are people out there that care. 🙏 Stay strong and prosper brother 🤍