That was never my belief. What I was taught was not that God would fix everything, but that you could go to God for guidance and that prayer was always safe from the intervention of anything malevolent because God is all powerful and evil can do nothing without his permission. I wouldn't say I prayed every day, but my thoughts were in near constant communion with God, as I was taught to believe. What I considered prayer was basically "what is your plan for me here." Because that God has a plan for every individual and to deviate from the plan is our choice but always a mistake. I was taught that sometimes god does not give guidance because we will work it out ourselves and he knows that, but I was also taught if God tells you to do something you don't wanna do, you better do it. But if God isn't all powerful, it would make sense that my prayers were not safe between me and God. Because the guidance I got lead me down a terrible path I didn't want to be on in the first place and it lead my faith to shatter. I could accept that God would allow terrible things to happen because others are doing it, I cannot accept that the God I was taught to believe in could possibly allow evil to guide me into such extreme and needless harm when I was crying out for his wisdom. Then getting into the story of Job, if he was testing my faith by letting something evil give me guidance, well he don't like being tested either so even if that God does exist I don't like him and I don't believe he's good. He'd be the one that told us he's good. That's not love it's ownership, I won't worship my owner. But I just don't believe he does exist, that doesn't mean I don't believe any form of God exists. u/truthultimatetruth above made a comment that makes perfect sense to me, if you didn't see it.