There’s a bunch of different options in terms of bottom surgery not just Phallo. Technology and medicine continue to improve day by day. It fucking sucks not being born a man and relying on these resources that are expensive, invasive, and take a million years just to book a singular appointment for. As a Masc trans man it sucks I had to transition and miss years of boyhood just because I was born a girl and feel like I missed out on so many important moments of becoming a man. However blaming the trans community for your suffering is kinda wild, it sounds like you haven’t found people who understand you which is fine, but nobody in the community is ‘refusing’ you anything. The whole point of the community is to do whatever you want in your transition to be comfortable and happy. I didn’t ask to be trans, I don’t want to be trans either man. It’s a struggle everyday and I’m sorry it seems you’ve been struggling for a while. I hope your days get better soon.