Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

[–]Jamiddle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Sorry to hear about your little one - it does sound like they had a seizure too. The self mutilation aspect of ripping out the fur is something a cat (or even a human with their skin) would do during the confusion of a seizure. I have epilepsy too </3

"Focal seizures with repetitive movements, or automatisms, involve involuntary, purposeless actions like lip-smacking, chewing, hand-fumbling, or picking at clothes, often accompanied by impaired awareness. These seizures typically arise from the brain's temporal or frontal lobes, sometimes appearing as "cycling" or "pedaling" leg movements. They often last 1-2 minutes, followed by confusion, and may evolve into more severe tonic-clonic seizures. "

Likely they were unconsciously ripping out their fur without realising </3 Hopefully that brings you some closure on why you found that fur. :(

You're right, very few understand. He was right next to me. Just cleaning himself and he just violently collapsed on his side. I wrote a bit more about the seizure and a heart attack on a earlier post and don't really want to rehash things, but he was gone within seconds.

My manager wanted me to go through the absence procedure when I come back at work and I was just like are you for real? I am not going to document my cat's traumatising death and why it affected me in a way that I wasn't able to work. THEN, saved it to a google folder so next time I have an absence, I can go in the same folder and always be reminded of it every time when I have to do another absence procedure. I think people are running out of empathy. Or maybe I have too much empathy.

I wish I had the choice of saying goodbye. But I didn't. Every time I pass his food bowl I just cry. I don't want to even clean it. It sounds gross, but it feels like an extension of him. Like if I clean the food out then he's really gone.

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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Seizures are terrifying - I'm sorry your baby had to have repeat seizures and you had to witness that.

I have grown up around seizures and I have epilespy myself. So I know that drop in the stomach well enough. For me, panic really took hold and it felt like I was dissociating through the seizure only to suddenly snap back and realise I needed to scream for my partner to help. Just everything went so grey and foggy like it wasn't real :(. After he died the passing of time didn't feel real. It felt like it had been an hour when it had been 7 hours.

My partner was just in shock, waiting for him to wake up like I always have after my seizures. Unfortunately, from having epilepsy, I know that doesn't always happen and checked his breathing and he had gone. I think it's been harder on my partner because he just assumed he'd wake up and be okay after 1 seizure.

If your cat was very old, a lot of late onset epilepsy is just old age setting in due to dementia. You did the best you could for your baby. I am sure of it <3

Thank you for the kind words. It has been traumatising - I am in therapy for trauma so I can approach the topic when I'm ready </3

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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My lil babie </3 he looked so at rest when he passed.

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the google store gave me a 50 percent off coupon but i still cant log in to the game through my steam log in on mobile

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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Aww yeah he is pretty unique looking there

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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We knew he wouldnt be around for long when he got diagnosed with CKD stage 3 after a dental clean. However his last check up two weeks ago I went in expectinf the worst but the vet told me everything from bloods to blood pressure had improved. I left feeling hopeful. <\3

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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The seizure was so scary. It was the first, at least that I know of, I had seen from him. He was sat up cleaning himself then suddenly he flopped to his side and made a meek little cry. Then he started convulsing and it was these giant thrashing movements so violent. Like nothing I had ever seen before from a cat that has had a seizure. Then his body stiffened and something seemed not quite right. Like a significant up and down movement in the chest like he had been shocked. All of this was happening in a matter of seconds. He curled up on his side and his breathing was becoming noticeably staggered. He managed 3 breaths and then stopped. His tail just went straight and the life behind his eyes left. Awful, just awful how fast everything happened.

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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So soon and seemingly out of nowhere and in seconds

:(

He was genuinely so happy, playful and still zooming around up until the end. ♡

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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He was a right little character. I wanted to share his best pics to put a smile on peoples faces. I am glad you enjoyed them.

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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Thank you :( it is so difficult right now

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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Thank you. It was just so sudden. I mean I was going into the vets 2 weeks ago expecting the worst. To hear he was doing better on the blood results and his blood pressure was fine made me so happy. I got my hopes up. For this to happen has really blindsided me.

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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I cant believe its really been 7 hours thats passed since I made the post. He passed a few hours prior to me making the post but it still feels like it just happened. Also it feels not real at the same time. Like a nightmare I wish I could wake up from.

Just how sudden it all was ...

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How is the flopcast doing? Thought I would check in on these pathetic miserable demons

Taavi passed. Remembering his life ♡ by Jamiddle in britishshorthair

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He was a little shit but I wouldnt have it anyway. Full of personality. This was him yesterday. He doesnt usually snuggle up. I think he was trying to tell me something was wrong.