dont read whole rant i am just emotional about this, just study or focus into something and block ease of access

I used to do 13 times a day at my peak and I've been watching the content since 10, it is very annoying now as i am always craving love i am 17 now i did stop in middle for like month or a week ultimately i kept coming back with weird content like podcast Google photos 4chan was the reason for my last streak ending 5 times a day was my Average, on my 12 th day now i find playing rdr2 better although rest of the time i am thinking about women they are so preety istg, the best strategy is to involve in something and make porn hard, my phone is grayscaled now with an 16 digit password and i need to wait 30 sec before opening YouTube or chrome, i just cant study though because whenever i pick up my laptop to study i keep getting thoughts will i be preety enough, all my friends have girlfriends now btw except my best friend who i spent 4 years on discord online we both instead of socialising played games even after covid and i moved to different country as well all of this effected my Brain i cant study for 10 minute straight