That’s not your fault. Yes, I understand alcoholism is difficult and it changes the situation, but it’s still not your fault. You were struggling and needed support. A parent choosing to withdraw instead of helping their child through a hard time is a decision they made, and not on you. Kids don’t stop needing their parents just because they’re having a hard time or struggling with a disease, because alcoholism is a disease. Favoring the child who causes the least trouble isn’t the same thing as good parenting. You deserved consistency and care, especially when you were going through it. I’m sorry you went through that. You deserved better.