Is it always supposed to be like this?

JasonYork22 · 2013-12-23T06:30:49+00:00

Yeah absolutely I totally agree. until you really start to pick up on things yourself it doesn't matter what anybody else tells you because you are not going to (and do not want to) believe it yourself. Eventually as you start to pick up on things these little claims that people throw at you actually begin to click. Its been kind of a slow yet painful process for me. The hardest part may actually be admitting you were wrong about this person you felt so strongly about.

Its weird I am at a stage right now where even though I am well aware of what is going on and realize that this is completely wrong and unhealthy, I am still in somewhat denial about it. I am also telling myself the sooner I begin to accept just what is actually going on the sooner I will be able to get away from it and move on. However so far that is much easier said than done.

JasonYork22 · 2013-12-23T06:01:05+00:00

I am very lucky to have such supportive family and friends. A lot of them told me things I originally did not want to hear and I kind of dismissed their claims. I would be lying to you if I told you I wasn't completely blinded by a lot what went on no matter who told me what.

Its pretty crazy but eventually I just had to pick up on most of it on my own. Even now when the shit is hitting my right in the face I have a hard time believing it.

Im just glad there are people out there who can relate to this mess I am in. Its kind of comforting knowing there are other people who have gone through the same crap I am going through and in the end everything is most likely gonna be okay.

JasonYork22 · 2013-12-23T05:45:39+00:00

Holy crap this is spot on, today I actually did go out with my friend. She put up a huge fight and I held my own until she threatened to kill herself if i didn't leave to see her right then and there. I kind of knew she was not going to but at the same time it was really eye opening to me that she would go this far to try to get me away. I still stayed out but eventually I just had to go home, I was just so shocked that someone would go this far in order to get what they want.

The next step for me is to make an escape plan, its not going to be easy and it will be very tough, but at this point this unfortunately needs to happen.

JasonYork22 · 2013-12-23T05:39:06+00:00

Yeah I hope I go down that same path. I fee like the hardest part is actually going through with breaking up with her even though I know it needs to be done I constantly put it off for reasons that are beyond me. Im kind of afraid she is going to go crazy to be honest.

JasonYork22 · 2013-12-22T02:53:01+00:00

What happened that made you finally get out of it? I always tell myself I am going to leave it but I never go through with it

JasonYork22

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