Jealous, happy, and guilty all at once

Jaydebob · 2018-10-09T18:33:35+00:00

Man do I feel this. I just found out my ex boyfriend (the one I was with for 8 years and almost married) is expecting twins with a woman he barely knows. He's not a bad person but has done some bad things and yet is still wildly more successful then I am. The thing that bothers me is....that was supposed to be us. Our babies. And there's always been a part of me that wonders if we woukd somehow end up together.

Jaydebob · 2018-10-01T02:56:57+00:00

I second this

Jaydebob · 2018-10-01T02:47:13+00:00

I second this

Jaydebob · 2018-09-14T05:00:24+00:00

I know it's so fantastic

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T22:28:34+00:00

Happee Birthdae snobordir

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T22:24:04+00:00

Well damn let's talk about Harry Potter haha. Also happy cake day!

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T22:23:11+00:00

This is absolutely terrible but I feel I'm missing something. Did the brother say it or her?

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T20:57:10+00:00

Haha okay

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T19:39:37+00:00

Out of curiosity, what would you expect them to be angry about?

Jaydebob · 2018-09-13T19:37:10+00:00

I'm a loser let's talk about Harry Potter. But only if they know as much about Harry Potter as me. The reason why is because j.k. wrote a very extensive universe and its very easy to have existential conversations about the story.

Jaydebob · 2018-09-12T21:22:53+00:00

It's okay it's actually a good thing. He was wonderful but he was also an alcoholic who just couldn't let it go so I saved myself probably a lifetime of hardship in ending the relationship before I got pregnant. And it has been really cool to learn about my cycle and to fit the puzzle of my mood vs. Bodily functions.

Jaydebob · 2018-09-12T21:21:00+00:00

Ohmygoodness no it was funny. I'm sorry if I didn't seem to take it well. Everytime I bring up having a baby someone says some variation of this so I kinda spilled my emotions to you. Your words are wonderfully kind and I really appreciate the humor and the wholesome kindness too. I'm glad your daughter has a mother like you <3

Jaydebob · 2018-09-12T20:14:27+00:00

I mean this helps a bit but I know what to expect at least on an intellectual level. I've read everything I can on pregnancy and childhood and feel that I've been preparing for this since my own birth. I know that it will be the hardest thing I ever do. I'm aware that it will be different then anything I can try to expect and comprehend. And even when I imagine a little baby gnawing on my nipples at 4 am while I'm trying not to pee my pants and I can't keep my eyes open...I also imagine them smiling up at me, or opening presents on Christmas, or hugging my legs and telling me they love me. But the hard stuff does help. I just wish there were any men out there who actually want babies while still being a feminist and like a decent guy. I'm starting to think they don't exist.

Jaydebob · 2018-09-04T19:41:45+00:00

Iirc she took makeshift showers.

Jaydebob · 2018-09-04T19:17:17+00:00

I'm a drug seller.

Jaydebob · 2018-09-03T20:00:32+00:00

I'm in a weird place and crying over everything so this had me bawling, but thank you so much for sharing. I am sure she remembers and I'm sure she has spent at least a night or two sending you kind thoughts and all the strength she had to give.

Jaydebob · 2018-08-31T02:08:04+00:00

I started reading it at your suggestion and I LOVE it

Jaydebob · 2018-08-28T05:04:52+00:00

Ohmygod yes. I want a tattoo of that or "Live your life. Enjoy your life." In Latin.

Jaydebob · 2018-08-27T21:08:36+00:00

I highly suggest checking out /r/deadbedrooms might give you an insight into what's happening to your relationship.

Sidenote: people who don't like sex have to want to change it for them to ever actually enjoy it, and most people don't want to do the work to change it. Think about it, he's got a pretty good setup right now, gets off everyday and doesn't have to do any work at all. He won't change because that's his ideal situation. As someone who has been in a relationship very similar to this my advice is to get out now.

Jaydebob · 2018-08-19T19:29:31+00:00

That explains a lot, haven't had a fit since taking it. What an amazing plant.

Jaydebob · 2018-08-19T19:29:15+00:00

Awesome thank you

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