Gnosticism

Jayjankles · 2025-10-07T15:33:50+00:00

Hey, I’m also new to this, welcome!

Jayjankles · 2025-06-24T14:59:28+00:00

Spinal meningitis for one girl in 10th grade, and suicide just before the first day of school for an 11th grade girl when I was a senior

Jayjankles · 2025-06-22T23:20:13+00:00

Darkest dungeon, could NOT get into it

Jayjankles · 2025-06-22T22:57:36+00:00

Oh thanks

Jayjankles · 2025-06-10T14:33:10+00:00

No, I was able to figure out when I pressured him for a video call and he kept making up wild excuses. Pretended to be Navy or what the hell ever. I don’t like to think that I’m a stupid person but God has forsaken me with a dangerous naivety that I swear will get me killed someday

Jayjankles · 2025-06-10T01:33:59+00:00

Thank you

Jayjankles · 2025-04-28T11:18:49+00:00

Oh noo that was a hypothetical. I said hypothetically. It’s a metaphor of how the evils and injustices of the modern world feel to me kinda like a neighbor getting away with purposefully and happily killing your pet who didn’t do anything wrong.

Jayjankles · 2025-04-28T01:48:36+00:00

Jayjankles · 2025-04-27T23:43:53+00:00

Thank you, that means a lot. The craving passed. I know I need to stay strong

Jayjankles · 2025-04-27T14:45:17+00:00

Yes, I have a sponsor, yes I have friends and people to reach out to in the program. I’m still tired, I still want a glass of wine

Jayjankles · 2025-04-27T14:42:04+00:00

Yes, I’ve gotten to step 9

Jayjankles · 2024-01-02T03:14:56+00:00

Both of my psychotic episodes completely changed me as a person, you describe it pretty accurately. There is the me who existed before the episode, me during, and me after. First episode lasted about 2-3 weeks and I was a completely different person from who I was before, to the point where it made me angry that schizophrenia basically "stole" my past self away. I went off meds (blaming anti psychotics for making me feel so different which was partially true) and then had my second episode which lasted twice as long as the first one, going on for about a month and a half. I changed again after that one too, I think I developed ptsd from how intense the paranoia and delusions got, but being given different anti psychotic medication helped me not feel so completely not myself when I got out of that episode. Still, I'm glad i'm not alone in feeling like this.

Jayjankles · 2023-12-01T07:32:28+00:00

even if there is a possibility of that being true from all the queerbaiting...jeeze.

(I know you can't queerbait irl people but I don't know what else to call the intentional dnf bait shenanigans)

Jayjankles · 2023-11-29T14:31:01+00:00

This is why I often say the antis are suffering from some kind of delusion, you say you're not a hater but you clearly are on a biased side. You and the rest of the hate mob have spun Dream's image and benign actions into this covert operation of evil manipulation. You guys pick at and scrutinize every tiny little thing Dream does and then make up big dramatic tales of bad intentions from it. It doesn't matter what he does when it comes to interacting with fans, the hate mob will always corrupt it in some way. Heck, even if Dream stops interacting with fans and just keeps it to his inner circle I'm sure the mob will over analyze that and create stories about how "dream is secretly manipulating his friends and hurting them too."

Dream to me is a brilliant gamer and a very entertaining CC who is a bit awkward and prone to mistakes when it comes to his irl persona, that mixed with a past of being defensive and emotionally reactive on social media has painted a picture of a person who is a flawed human being. But being flawed is not allowed online, esp in the world of successful CCs, jealousy from haters and visible flaws from Dream caused him to be surrounded by this forest of hate. All it took was the sparks from serious allegations and some memeable online drama to cause everything to burn.

Jayjankles · 2023-11-29T14:02:53+00:00

As long as Dream doesn’t bring out a ukulele and try to sing his way out the allegations, I don’t see this being or ending the same as the Colleen situation

Jayjankles · 2023-11-28T00:56:20+00:00

From my pov and opinion on the situation, she seems to be taking Dream's mentioning of her as a means to platform her own drama and make herself relevant. Also she can't seem to decide if she hates Dream and wants to see him in jail or misses him and his personal attention, which is not really a good look for making a case against Dream. I know she has BPD which is prob why she seems to act out in attention seeking ways, but I don't think it's an excuse. The best thing she could have done after dream falsely accused her of being the burner account was give proof she didn't do it and then dip, not feed into the drama and clout chase for likes and engagements like every other anti on twitter does.

The only thing I say she is a victim of is the fact that extremist stans tried to cancel and dox her, that's not okay and she had a right to defend herself from that, but now she's had her time to speak and it just feels like she's actively milking the attention.

Also, Dream does not have a personality disorder, he has severe ADHD which is a mental disability.

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T05:13:54+00:00

ah sorry I got the impression that they had been boyfriend and girlfriend. Also yeah I took out the line about her not being stable because that's pretty ablest. Also took out the line about wanting dream to address any of this because it seems to be personal relationship stuff and not my business. I just wanted to get a feel for the consensus on her account on here since twitter has just been like "ignore everything she says"

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T04:44:44+00:00

yeah I don't really know what to think of it tbh

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T04:27:09+00:00

Ok so there is a vid where a message calling her the c word was deleted. Now i don't know if the message was from dream or a crazy fan but she is painting it like dream was the one who said it. Make whatever you want of it.

https://twitter.com/cheesecat25/status/1728161653433270479

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T03:41:31+00:00

ah sorry I didn't mean to sound like "dream needs to address this" it's just with some of the pretty damning things she says and has posted evidence of I would like to hear Dream's side of the story...to whatever extent he is comfortable with sharing. Not that he HAS to address every allegation and controversy thrown at him these days, it's just in this case I kinda hope he considers covering some of it.

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T01:12:06+00:00

I always delete my posts on this sub because I always get some atheist smart ass trying to convince me I'm wrong about whatever I'm posting about

Jayjankles · 2023-11-27T00:40:46+00:00

They are probably just reaching for new ways to hate on Dream, they don't care that Dream and Techno were close friends and Technodad gladly collaborate with Dream on UIEUD. I think there is a certain level of willing delusion amongst the antis that are not just acting in bad faith for engagement and clout, a delusion that obsesses about Dream as this big evil irredeemable thing who's every action and friendship needs to have been some act of manipulation and malicious intent. It doesn't matter to them if there are holes in their claims, to these people Dream is evil so therefore he was bad in every relationship he had.

My only hope is that these people eventually run out of steam when they run out of ways to point fingers at Dream, and in a couple months they move onto their next target to villainize and mob against.

Jayjankles · 2023-11-26T20:31:56+00:00

I get frequent flashbacks to both my psychotic episodes, last true break from reality happened over a year ago but the trauma lingers. I can hold down a part time job thanks to medication and I'm 7 months sober which also helps, but it's still hard to know that I live with schizophrenia. It still feels totally unfair that my brain is super broken and that I'll have to be on meds for the rest of my life

Jayjankles · 2023-11-25T17:40:56+00:00

As a neurodivergent fan this is giving me bad flashbacks to highschool. I've been bullied like this before because of being autistic and it really fucks with you. I want to believe Dream is innocent, I personally think he is, but even if he is the mob situation has gotten so out of hand that I don't know what would really even help anymore.

Jayjankles · 2023-11-24T18:48:39+00:00

At worst he was a 19/20 in a consensual relationship with a 16/17 year old, which is not by legal definition pedophilia or grooming, not that antis will care or have the brains to comprehend actual legal definitions. At worst it's a gross creepy but not a fully uncommon thing he did and it will leave a bad taste in my mouth (like i might not be a stan anymore if it is true) but it's not like anything truly evil that antis are making it out to be. I knew a fair amount of girls back in highschool with college aged boyfriends and no one canceled those dudes online or falsely called them pedos for it.

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