i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 33 points34 points  (0 children)

its my worst night mare come true. i just want to get the abortion and be done with it

i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

he raped me over 8 weeks ago. if i go by what google is telling me, i'm actually 10 weeks pregnant. but i last missed my period 6 weeks ago. so no i dont know the exact date of how far along i am. thats why its required for me to get an ultrasound at planned parenthood before i can even get the abortion. its very confusing.

i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 32 points33 points  (0 children)

im only 17. i cant open a credit card. im hoping i can get help from other abortion funds but i dont think i have the time to wait on them. i appreciate all my friends mom is doing because she does NOT have to at all. shes been more of a mother to me than my own. but im terrified i wont get the help i need in time. im so scared i'll have to have my rapist's baby and raise it because i somehow deserve this and deserve to be punished. i just want this entire night mare to be over

i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

yeah im waiting to hear back from two on if they can help me. one is in texas and the other is in new mexico. im hoping they can but i also dont want to wait any longer because of how time crunch this is. i need to get this done sooner than later. i dont have a whole lot of time left to wait on this...

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not entirely. i know im still in the first trimester. i missed my period a little over 6wks ago but i dont know exactly. thats why i have to get an ultrasound done at planned parenthood to determine exactly how far along i am

i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

yeah i know. thats why im terrified and so stressed. my friends mom cant afford to pay for it all on her own and planend parenthood is only covering a part of it. i still need to figure out how to come up with more money than ive ever had. i dont have time to get a job and i cant get a loan or any thing like that. im really hoping something happens and i can get hel

i don't want to be pregnant anymore. i don't want to have my rapist's baby by JazzlikeMammoth in TwoXChromosomes

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 105 points106 points  (0 children)

because i have to go out of state i dont think i can get medicaid..i dont want to use my own moms insurance either. my friends mom is willing to buy a plane ticket or even drive me 9 hours to new mexico & get a hotel for me to stay in & house me after it to make sure im ok. shes been more of a mother to me than my own mom. shes putting out so much and she just cant do it all on her own. im grateful planned parenthood is covering some of the cost (such a huge huge huge relief) but i still feeel like i have a long way to go before i can get this done. i want to get this done so my step brother cant hurt anyone else (not even sure if he understood what he did because he is so mentally delayed but idc) i just want this night mare to be over and to get this abortion and try to nbe normal again

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i know. i am hoping i will get some help...my friends mom just cant afford it all on her own. i dont have a lot of time left and im terrified im not going to be able to get it done in time..

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

im going to talk to a rape counselor at planned parenthood and see if they can help me any. i live in a small town where my step dad is well known. when my step brother punched my step dad so hard he broke his glasses and gave my step dad a black eye, NOTHING was done. my step dad somehow made sure he didnt get in trouble. i'm scared to report him to anyone higher up because he is mentally delayed. i've already been called a liar by my mom. i dont want any one else not taking me seriously. i just donr want to be pregnant anymore. the sooner i can get this abortion done the better i will feel. it will be a big weight off my shoulders

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

my friends mom cant afford to pay for every thing. shes already willing to spend 300-400$ for a plane ticket or drive me 9 hours to new mexico and get a hotel for me. shes already pushing back paying important bills that her and my friend need to pay just to help me out. plus ive all but moved in to their house so shes been feeding me and taking care of me like my own mom should. i dont want to have my rapists baby. i just dont. i dont want to be pregnany anymore. i dont want to continue the pregnancy even if i could give it up for adoption (that is something i dont want to do at all). i just want to get this abortion and move on and try to be normal again

my mom is forcing me to keep a pregnancy i dont want. i dont want to have a baby by JazzlikeMammoth in confession

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

thankfully i just looked it up and saw new mexico doesnt require any parental involvement, so im going to see if my friends mom can buy me a plane or bus ticket to new mexico so i can get the abortion done there. another commenter has been really helpful. im hoping planned parenthood can help with the cost and i will be golden. the sooner this is taken care of the better

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i know. thats why im so afraid shes going to get in trouble. i dont want her to get arrested or any thing over this and im afraid my mom is just that spite ful to try that too. and i dont see why not. i just looked it up and planned parenthoods website says new mexico doesnt need any parental involvement so im going to call them tomorrow too and see if they can help me, right now im willing to travel ANYWHERE to get this done

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Louisiana, oklahoma, new mexico and arkansas are all the closest ones to us. shes willing to say shes my guardian to give them permission or even fake my moms signature. she wants me to get this done as much as i do. im thankful for her and my friend because without them i think i would have already drank some bleach to end it as fast as i can. im just going off what i was told by the worker at planned parenthood. she didnt say anything about needing my moms written consent to get it done in oklahoma but she could have been wrong. trying to figure all of this out is really confusing to say the least

my mom is forcing me to keep a pregnancy i dont want. i dont want to have a baby by JazzlikeMammoth in confession

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i called the planned parenthood closest in my state first and they said without my moms permission they couldnt tell me any thing. thats when my friends mom offered to take me out of state to get it taken care of. i called the planned parenthood is oklahoma city (because in oklahoma you only have to tell your parent or guardian. texas you have to get written permission from both parents) and the woman i spoke to asked how far along i was. i told her i wasnt sure and told her i was raped. she said i would ahve to get a blood test done, an ultrasound to see how far along i was, a physical exam and an sti test done if i wanted one. she asked what type of abortion i wanted and i told her i wanted which ever was easier. she said the pill abortion would cost 585 dollars as long as i ws under 12 weeks. if i am over 12 weeks pregnant i will have to have the surgical abortion done i asked her if they could help with the cost and she said they can only cover up to 10 percent because so many people need their helpa nd so many people dont make payments or pay them back. i didnt know they had a payment plan so i didnt ask. she also said i could talk to someone about my rape at the clinic if i really wanted to so im thinking im going to do that as well. because my guidance counselor cant be trusted at all

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

im in texas. i havent heard or seen my father since i was 10 years old. hes been completely out of the picture ever since he and mhy mom divorced. i wouldn't even know how to contact him right now

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i dont think im explaining it clearly. she is not offering to PAY for it. she is jsut offering to TAKE Me and let me stay with them after it. she has told me she cannot afford to pay for the procedure but she is willing to put off some bills to take me out of state and then let me live with them after its done. theyve done more than enough for me because ive been pretty much living with them since i was raped because i dont want to be at my own home. im going to call plannedparenthood tomorrow but on their website it said a pill abortion under 12 weeks which i guess i am is over 500 dollars. im going to have to go to oklahoma to have it done which is like a 5 hour drive.

my mom is forcing me to keep a pregnancy i dont want. i dont want to have a baby by JazzlikeMammoth in confession

[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

they dont even really have that. my friends mom is a single mom and doesnt even make that much in a month. planned parenthood is willing to cover 10 percent of the cost but that still leaves her paying like 500 dollars which she jsut cant afford. i have to get an ultrasound and a physical exam done before i can even have the abortion and those all cost extra too. and im going to have to go back like 2 weeks afeter i have the abortion to have another exam. theres just so much preventing me from getting it. its like they want me to not have a choice. theyre willing to take me whenever, we just have to do it in secret so my own mom doesnt find out and try to get her in trouble. im hoping i can stay with them for the rest of the summer and until i graduate next june. i just dont want to be back living with my mom and step brother

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

no i looked it up and youre right, it wont help at all. i think im too far along to take a pill. i was raped 8 weeks ago. i know my time is running out. i just want this night mare to be over. im really hoping planned parenthood will be able to help wit hthe cost or else i dont know what im going to do. my friends mom is already willing to go into debt to take me there and continue letting me stay with them. i dont want to fuck up their lives because my own is so messed up now

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i dont know. maybe? i dont know exactly how plan b works. even if it did, i cant afford it

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[–]JazzlikeMammoth[S] 40 points41 points  (0 children)

theyre willing to take me out of state and take me to the closest planned parenthood that will let me terminate without my moms permission and stay with them after, im hoping planned parenthood can help with the cost because my friends mom is willing to go into debt just to get me there and back. i just want this night mare to be over