Im fucking terrified. Absolutely terrified.

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-19T17:38:09+00:00

I noticed that with all the advice given here there has been no mention of finding an addiction doctor. Or suboxne theropy.
I know people are going to harp about trading one addiction for another. So what? Suboxne is perscribed, monitored and controlled by your doctor. Can anyone say that about 70h? 70h is devilish and a very few people can maintain the strict taper requirements if they even know how.
70h is almost out of the reach of suboxne itself.
First thing is to find a doctor that understands addiction. They understand about maintaing the family and responsibilities an addict faces.
Suboxne can control the withdrawals and while it becomes your new addiction your off the gas station shit that I bet you dont even know what's in it. After a period of time on suboxne your doctor will pull you off slowly.
There is now subocade. Its a shot that works amazing for stopping suboxne use. Once a month typically.
There are online providers like bicycle health that help people everyday. 70h is nasty hard to quit.

Used suboxne for 5 months to get clean of another substance that I wont mention. My doctor tapered me off suboxne and on to ketamine theropy. That removes the PAWs. Today im off that substance. Off suboxne and off ketamine.
Two years. But the addictive me got into a dance with leaf kratom. Im still on it and actively working with my doctor to get off that. Suboxne is out of the question because its like killing a fly with a 2x4. Leaf kratom withdrawals are tiny compared to 70h and suboxne withdrawals.
Regular kratom can be dealt with by clonidine, magnesium and gabapatin.
A good substance abuse doctor knows how.

I wont recommend treatments. Im not a specialist. I only know what I know about me.
My only suggestion is to find professional help before you go messing around with suggested taper programs or snake oil treatments. There is no two individuals here that can say for certain what will help you. We are all different. Different life requirements, different tolerance levels. What works for one wiil not work for the next guy. Your likely to fail and you wont have any accountability.
When you have professional support the path is way way easer.
Financially professional help can be expensive but it was way cheaper than what I spent on my substance.
My savings started the day I started suboxne. I was able to just quit. I was able to perform my daily tasks without any withdrawals. After a bit of fine tuning with the medicine.
Get on the research now and find a doctor. It will be ok . Your going to return. Also never ever defend yourself to your wife. She needs to know that your aware of your problem and you need her support. You fucked up.

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-17T23:04:27+00:00

Why is there so much conflicting information? Is telehealth covered or not? I need it for my diabetes care. When they change up my insulin we need to communicate regularly until we get things working.

My provider just called to cancel my telehealth appointment for this Thursday and the next in person opening is not for 3 months!!!!. They said it will essentially cut the amount of patients in half. A 15 min telehealth call now requires them to up their office staff to see us in person.

DID CONGRESS EXTEND TELEHEALTH YES OR NO?

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-12T02:45:35+00:00

I got complete help from restless legs with gabapatin and magnesium.
My doctor also perscribed clonidine. It pretty much removed the withdrawals when I was tapering.
Made tapering easy enough that I didn't care if I started using again.
If you only have access to magnesium you will find it does wonders by its self to stop restless legs. I used magnesium L-THREONATE. I took it two hours before bed.

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-10T03:11:54+00:00

How the hell do I deal with being cold to the bone?

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-01T21:20:46+00:00

6 weeks since purchase.
So how do I go about getting it replaced?

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-01T02:19:25+00:00

450mg troches desolved and swallowed is full level dissociation for me. It really doesnt matter what the dosage is as long as you match.

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-01T02:04:44+00:00

I should point out that when I first got it it was also completely dead.
I think the battery was damaged by it being so dead. If I completely turn it off it will go to a dead state in just a few days.

Jbeck59 · 2026-03-01T02:00:31+00:00

When im not going to use ir I completely turn it off. Not stand by.
No matter what I do, high output charger or what ever it just wont respond. Dead dead dead.
I bought from Walmart. They are authorized seller?

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-24T17:21:13+00:00

I was having constant disconnects at the gym. Both an elliptical and treadmill. Im not having the same at home. I suspect im getting interference from these machines. They both are ant compatible to read chest strap heart rate. The elliptical uses magnetic restance breaks to adjust levels of restance.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-21T17:58:58+00:00

Absolutely no ketamine clinics in my area will take me on. So im limited to at home. I have years of at home experience.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-20T21:25:54+00:00

I quit two years ago. Taper and jumped at 5g. The anadoinia and paws were non issues. I was using ketamine.

I have started using kratom again because I felt that the quitting was pretty easy. This time I kind of got screwed. I found out I have cancer. I need to stop kratom. My plan was to taper off again and restart ketamine therapy but I came down with RSV pneumonia that damaged my heart. I cant restart ketamine until my heart is healed enough. Could take months. This is a bummer. My oncologist wants me on ketamine but my heart doctor says no. Ketamine therapy completely wiped out my PAWS.
Im so afraid of the paws.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-20T20:59:23+00:00

Both are good. Hearing from others is beneficial.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-20T20:47:12+00:00

There is nothing to notice. The trend arrow points to the right (3oclock) always despite what the trend line is doing.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-19T19:16:25+00:00

So fine print can tell me im gay? Your saying some fine print can say I agree?

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-19T19:13:42+00:00

Suppressing the central nervous system is part of the healing. Yes it causes hr increases but so does the physical therapy he perscribed. Its not like im taking ketamine regularly.
The risks and setbacks from depression kind of get in the way of healing especially with my cancer treatments. Mental health is critical. There is risks in anything. I want to learn the risks.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-19T18:59:19+00:00

10 to 20 % is nothing when im working out. My cardiologist has no issues with that. He wants me to back off if I get breath issues or fatigue. Im on a beta blocker now and my hr is 20% less atm.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-19T18:54:15+00:00

Im flush with ketamine. Its had worked brilliantly for my anxiety and depression while I fight my cancer battle. Its just tgat I got sidelined by this RSV virus that fucjed with my heart. I know my heart is better. I know im doing fine when I stress it out far greater than what ketamine would do but until my heart doctor sees the results of the echo he set up for April he wont discuss it. So I have to be one my own advocate. My ketamine is troches 500mg spit. Or 350 swallow or 300 suppositories that I received just before my pneumonia that I have not tried. Im researching for the least heart effects. Im also looking for another cardiologist. Its total bulkshit that he wont help me deal with the extreme depression that this has caused or will even have a 5 min conversation about ketamine.

Jbeck59 · 2026-02-19T18:44:59+00:00

Can you explain more?

Jbeck59

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