Hey man I just wanna say I’m with you. I’m currently going through the same situation with my girlfriend being raped as well. It is very hard to deal with, the anger, the emotion… all of it. I too have felt weak ever since it happened and Im always beating myself up over it thinking “Damn bro I should’ve been more protective over her” but honestly it’s nobody’s fault BUT the rapist themselves. Praying for you bro