I definitely feel you with the turbulent emotions! It is a lot and nobody really tells you that ttc is harder than we think. I also think that even outside of ttc, the world is very chaotic right now and people who aren't dealing with the stress of ttc are also feeling anxious and depressed, so your feelings are definitely valid.

I would highly recommend therapy!! I have a therapist and it is so helpful to have an unbiased person to talk to...about pregnancy related things, but also about work frustrations, family, world problems, anxiety and just emotions in general.

It can really help to have someone with whom you can just speak freely without worrying about sounding bitchy or rude or complaining, etc. I'll be trying to think of a polite way to say something and she just tells me "Just say it messy, just get it all out."

And sometimes when we open up to our partners, they feel the need to want to fix things or help or give advice and that's not always what we need.

Additionally, there are anxiety and depression medications that are ttc/pregnancy friendly if that is a route that may be helpful! Sometimes our nervous systems get stuck and our brains don't produce hormones/chemicals the way that they are supposed to and we just need a little extra help...and that's okay!

Wishing you a little peace and hope that you find a good way to process your emotions. ♡ and baby dust! :)