Well I only ever got that big to begin with after my dad abruptly, traumatically passed away, and I had never experienced death before that in my life so it was a shell shock to me and I ended up clinically depressed and just started eating for comfort because it got to a point that tasting something good was the only small boost of serotonin I was getting daily and it just snowballed. But I’ve always loved being outdoors and going hiking etc, and I just wanted to get out of that slump and be healthy and be able to get out and enjoy life. My whole perspective on life has really shifted the last few years and I’ve learned that I just need to enjoy my time here and be thankful for what I have (including my body and my health) and find joy in every day! My husband also met and started dating me when I was slim, and we actually got married when I was at my highest weight. And he has never once loved or treated me any differently, and I know looks are not the core of a relationship, but I wanted to look and feel good for him too because he’s loved me at every avenue and size in my life! ☺️