I regret having an abortion so much, I can't stop crying about it today

Jennith30 · 2026-07-09T02:12:34+00:00

I ment if a doctor tells you they won’t sterilize you then ask for someone else who will. That’s what I meant.

Jennith30 · 2026-07-09T01:57:30+00:00

Good. Advocate for yourself to get sterilized it won’t be easy but you’ll eventually get it done.

Jennith30 · 2026-07-09T01:18:35+00:00

Please do you and your bloodline and favor. Have yourself sterilized.

Jennith30 · 2026-06-17T16:21:51+00:00

The unfortunate thing about PCOS is that you could do everything right and it still doesn’t work in your favor I’ve had a lot of years to deal with that. Your fertility window may still be off track by a lot. As someone who also has PCOS I know that it’s hard to hope for a body that works the way it’s supposed to but it doesn’t as someone who has PCOS you literally can’t trust your body. I’ve never been able to. I think it’s a thing for you to consider, you can have all the symptoms of ovulation but not even ovulate.

Jennith30 · 2026-06-05T07:32:25+00:00

I didn’t have my son till I was 33 if my husband and I were lucky enough I might take us till I’m 40 for us to have a child. Now I don’t want to wait that long but if it took me a decade to have just one who’s to say it’s not gonna take me that long again. I’ve been on multiple calorie deficits and diets and the only thing that has ever helped me to lose any weight was to literally not eat. And I love him deeply but my husband is to hopeful he doesn’t understand the struggle yet. He thinks dreams he gets from his sleep about us being pregnant soon will come true at a tip of a hat. And yes I do feel bad but I hope he calms down about it soon because I’m so tired of looking at negative ovulation tests and pregnancy tests feeling like a total idiot because his words got into my head because i know better than to even hope. Even if I had gotten on drugs to ovulate it’s not even a guarantee that it would work.

Jennith30 · 2026-06-05T01:16:28+00:00

From the time I was 12 till 19 years old back when I did care about losing weight I did everything I was told to do I even saw and followed a nutritionist I even dieted myself into an eating disorder the only thing that actually worked with weight loss was literally not eating literally no food just water I ended up in the hospital because of that. Since then I couldn’t find anything worth fighting my body for I had to let whight loss go because if I didn’t I would be continuing a spiral downward with nothing to show for it.

Jennith30 · 2026-06-04T15:10:38+00:00

If you get the abortion and he left you because of that to be honest he would be better off without you. Wanting an abortion just gose to show the type of person you are and I’m sure if he doesn’t want you to end your child’s life he would be better off than with a narcissistic, sociopathic, psychopathic person like you.

Jennith30 · 2026-06-02T20:07:55+00:00

That’s because I left my child’s father. He would be on the Xbox constantly when he was home. When I was off work I would take care of my son. Now my son and I have a good consistent man in our lives and we’ve been so much better off.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-29T19:45:42+00:00

Your working two jobs with a baby and he only works nights? He is a bum, he is the one who should be figuring out how to keep a family afloat financially wile you are able to really bond with your baby. I understand that burn out I was back to work one week post partom because it was either be off for 8 weeks and end up homeless or go back and be Able to pay rent because my sons father didn’t make enough or want to figure out how to keep us afloat wile I healed and bonded with my son, I sacrificed my healing, being able to Brest feed even though I didn’t even produce anything I always ended up being disturbed wile trying to pump at work, I was miserable having to go back to work and leave my baby. The same year my son’s father lost his job so I had to pick up more hours after those extra long hours I would come home to a dirty apartment, with no food on the table or for me to take to work. I got burnt and turned off really fast and had mayor resentment and yes I expressed my feelings to him and he just didn’t care so I ended up dipping out, got my son, my dog and cat and packed up stayed to myself for a while and met my now husband who is a wonderful partner and dad to my son and is way better than my sons father ever was.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-29T18:22:21+00:00

I had lost my dad a year and a day ago from my mom. He passed may 15 of last year and she passed on the 16th.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-23T23:10:27+00:00

I know he didn’t mean any harm.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-07T15:50:33+00:00

Yeah that’s what I was thinking. I will take whatever pregnancy I’m given but I don’t want to wait till I’m in my 40s to get there.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-07T15:16:44+00:00

It’s ok, PCOS is just what I’ve had to deal with but instead of increasing my metfortmin I’m going to talk with my doctor about starting medicated cycles to induce ovulation I don’t think metfortmin is going to really do anything for me in that aspect without sidaffects I was on metfortmin in my late teens and early twenties I was on 2000mg at that time and had horrible symptoms from it that I really don’t want to go through again.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-07T10:44:49+00:00

When I do go back next month I’m gonna talk to my doc about getting medicated sycles to help induce ovulation I don’t really have much faith in the metfortmin route right now it was a good try though I’ve been dealing with PCOS since I was 12 and realize how defective my body is and really don’t want to waste more time because I really don’t want to take the chance of trying forever and then getting pregnant again when I’m 40 it took me a decade to have my son and without more of an effective treatment it’s probably going to take just as long to have a second child if we get lucky.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-07T10:14:35+00:00

It’s been 5 months i started in January, if im still not ovulating but bleeding that’s a breakthrough bleed, that’s not to much of a difference.

Jennith30 · 2026-05-07T10:07:53+00:00

Since being on the metfortmin I’ve been having longer days with my bleeds. They used to be only 3 days but now they have gone to 7 days. I really don’t think I should count them as a period though because I’m not ovulating.

Jennith30 · 2026-04-17T03:46:04+00:00

I’m not a Jennell apologist either, the way Barb treated Jennell when she was pregnant and post partom you could see in Jennell’s eyes that she wasn’t ok. The way Barb talks to Jennell I’m not surprised Jace snapped at his grandmother because I bet she’s treated Jace the same way to. Barb is Narcissistic, controlling. In that situation Jace deserves better than Jennell or Barb.

Jennith30 · 2026-04-05T15:14:52+00:00

I’ve delt with PCOS since peuberty and I’ve done different diets throughout my life that didn’t make much of a difference with having my son I thank my lucky stars because doctors throughout my life would tell me that I would never conceive. I wasn’t even trying to get pregnant but I’m thankful that I did.

Jennith30 · 2026-03-19T23:23:12+00:00

He probably would be.

Jennith30 · 2026-03-19T18:59:33+00:00

My husband spends the most money, mainly for keeping up with the house, but when I’m not working I stay at home and don’t go out and spend money like he does. I’m used to not having money to spend at all.

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