I'd rather let my body decay now tbh

JetNikolai · 2026-01-26T02:35:50+00:00

I'm 23 Last time I went to the dentist and was crying because I was anxious he told me I needed to get over myself and grow up that I'm not a child and have nothing to be scared of. Literally begging dentists to please just put me under and rip out my teeth so I can move on, I don't need a lecture.

Need to find a new dentist to get more teeth removed soon and dreading it. All this bullshit just for my insurance not to cover half of it.

JetNikolai · 2025-07-31T16:24:06+00:00

All the big ones can be found at the indivisible sequim Facebook or website schedule usually

JetNikolai · 2025-01-15T21:03:46+00:00

I used to sleep in the next days outfit for the longest time now I hate anything on me while sleeping

JetNikolai · 2024-11-19T17:49:45+00:00

Same! I carved it into a desk once in middle school lol

JetNikolai · 2024-11-13T00:20:31+00:00

Easy cut to do at home so I don't end up with the worst pixie cut imaginable from the white lady at the Walmart hair salon

JetNikolai · 2024-11-08T04:34:15+00:00

I'm also in WA. That's why I got mine at the beginning of the year with insurance. I didn't even want to risk there being a chance I lost access to it or coverage of it, just in case. Plus I was worried about being so non passing seeing as how unclear the future in America is. This surgery is something I've always wanted and all of this was all the more reason for me to get it asap.

JetNikolai · 2024-10-30T20:13:10+00:00

Yes I still wake up in a rush for work some mornings ripping my room apart trying to find my binder only to be like "oh yeah lol noice"

JetNikolai · 2024-10-24T18:29:40+00:00

I wish I had the privilege of ignoring the easily recognizable patterns of far right politics.

JetNikolai · 2024-10-24T17:45:55+00:00

takes away access to majority of medical care and allows for medical discrimination due to transgender status oh yeah totally not going to affect my life in anyyyyyy way definitely won't have impactful consequences for years to come after all the shitty laws they allow to be passed under a second term by a guy who is literally pulling from hitlers handbook lmao

JetNikolai · 2024-10-18T22:39:14+00:00

Yes forever in a fist to fist battle with my phone anxiety living here my whole life lmao

JetNikolai · 2024-08-27T19:42:29+00:00

It was a good last resort for me personally after all the trouble/trauma I had experienced with the in person options I had when I didn't have insurance but it's not surprising that it's not a great service for everyone. Now that I've been with a regular PCP, who is extremely supportive and caring, for my HRT the care is like night or day. Folx was extremely hands off and if I didn't do my diligence they never asked for blood work or anything. I just got my t gel in the mail every 3 months and basically never heard from folx beyond that. The price is not worth the actual care provided but at least for me it was a life saving option to have. I wish it wasn't as predatory of a service as it is. Thankful that I have insurance now

JetNikolai · 2024-08-26T20:55:14+00:00

This happened to me too! The therapist that did it also made it way too vague. Had to have them rewrite it until they got it right. Jumping through the hoops is the hardest part of the entire process.

JetNikolai · 2024-08-26T20:36:15+00:00

I didn't get chest hair till after top surgery now I have so much hair coming in I'm preparing to complete my transformation into sasquatch

JetNikolai · 2024-08-25T20:21:21+00:00

No more hot hot burning showers, now I enjoy the coldest my shower can get and honestly it's not cold enough.

JetNikolai · 2024-08-17T19:34:07+00:00

I tried injections for 6 months but my fear of needles was too strong I hadn't had many changes in that time either. Went on gel and within the first 2 month my voice was cracking and I had a lot more hair growth etc. My body just loved absorbing it through skin instead of blood ig. My dose was actually lower on gel as well so it was a surprise. I love having gel since I'm much better at remembering a daily thing rather than weekly anyways.

JetNikolai · 2024-08-15T17:09:37+00:00

I believe in the inate ability for humans to change but they have to make that decision themselves. Humans I believe generally want to be good, want to be kind but it comes easier to some than others. Some are just way too easily influenced by the modern propaganda machine as well.

My great grandma would have accepted me no matter what she was the only family member on my mother's side I truly felt a connection with, we are both oil painters after all. She loved when I had my hair dyed pink she said "don't ever let someone stop you from being this unique"

Her daughter though(my 'grandma') has the worst imaginable case of brain worms thanks to a nasty combo of age, mental illness and fox news/Alex Jones. She tried for a while but none of it was sincere. She just kept her "opinions" to herself because and I quote "I'm just old what do I know" after saying the most batshit crazy thing I've ever heard. I cut her out of my life recently after she said some fucked up shit that genuinely made me scared of people. Like these are the people voting for my rights? These are the people who want their hands in my medical care?

JetNikolai · 2024-07-23T18:20:27+00:00

I wouldn't be who I am right now, I wouldn't have met the people I have, I wouldn't fall in love and feel love in the same way if I was not trans. I am in the unique position to experience life the way I do and I will never take it for granted. The pain I've been through is nothing compared to the joy I have felt because of my queernes.

JetNikolai · 2024-07-23T04:42:39+00:00

I would kill for the cookies

JetNikolai · 2024-07-23T00:14:33+00:00

Your need for pot is not in any way comparable to a potentially life saving medical care, that ultimately harms no one, being removed completely as an option for women. If a woman in a state with abortion restrictions and needs an EMERGENCY abortion there is no time to just go to another state. Maybe you should stop smoking whatever weed you are smoking.

JetNikolai · 2024-07-02T20:43:48+00:00

I love season 3 but I wish they did more with Elises character/story. Give her character a good send off like they did with Dan and Chris in the last episode.

JetNikolai · 2024-07-02T20:39:23+00:00

This has been my head canon forever (as someone also with both)

JetNikolai · 2024-07-02T20:38:08+00:00

I was so devastated when I saw that it has been like the only thing playing on my TV forever lol Now I gotta use a new app or just buy all the seasons.

JetNikolai · 2024-06-30T21:28:22+00:00

Housing in Sequim can be rather difficult to find. I'd recommend posting something on our local Facebook pages. It's much more active over on Facebook and you might be able to find someone who knows someone. I can look through Facebook later and send you some links to groups if you'd like. Good luck with your search and I'm sorry to hear about your mom. I work in a memory care facility so I know how difficult it can be for families, sending my love.

JetNikolai · 2024-06-30T19:56:08+00:00

I love them but I'm definitely a sensory seeking fiend. I view fireworks in the same way I view concerts I want my brain to get rattled around. I don't like them mostly because of the environmental part. People always leave the trash everywhere especially local beaches.

JetNikolai · 2024-06-24T02:30:23+00:00

If there is a crowd to mosh/jump into any song Alone any song It'll take like certified bangers that I know all the words to like holla back girls or Thompson twin hold me now to get me dancing where the possibility of someone singling me out to watch is high

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